Mimosa Hostilis and Syrian Rue

Ok, I'll tell you about my first experience, which occurred on my 21st birthday... I was visiting a friend, and his roommate, an avid user of psychedelics, happened to be in the midst of taking some brew. He offered me some and gave me a small amount, as it was the first time he had made the brew and was unsure of how intense it would be. The initial effects took about half an hour to set in, and reminded me almost of a mushroom trip, i.e. color intensification, breathing walls, geometric closed-eye visuals, a euphoric giddy feeling... But then I was overwhelmed with an indescribable sensation, what I suppose I would equate with the breaking down of the sense of self, something I've heard is common with acid (something I've never tried) but has only been hinted at with other psychedelics (in my case at least). I wasn't wholly prepared for the experience so we went inside, where my friend's roommate proceeded to play a reading from william s. bouroughs' book the western land, which was accompanied by various sound effects. Quite frankly, it scared the living shit out of me. It was at this point that I was hit with a strong urge to vomit, and I ran to the upstairs bathroom and let loose into the sink... Then a very curious thing happened. As I ran the tap water it seemed to shimmer a gold and silver color and the water droplets began to form into the shapes of what I can only describe as some sort of tribal gods and goddesses. At this point I started to mellow out and the trip receded (If you don't take very much it doesn't last long.) I went downstairs and we decided to take a stronger dose. After taking almost half of a large mug, we waited. This time around the trip was FAR more intense. Even though I was conscious and enthusiastically talking with my friend's roommate about this and that, I was in a dreamlike state that's difficult to describe unless you've been there yourself. Every thought I had seemed to vividly take shape in my mind's eye, almost seeming as if real. Every time I close my eyes fractal landscapes would open up before me, morph into animals and insects, then to demons and angels, gods, goddesses, and then back again. I felt connected to everything, for lack of a better description, much more so than the other psychedelics I've experienced, and had a gratifying feeling of well being. There were a couple instances of nausea and purging, but other than that the experience was quite pleasant. I felt happy and cleansed the next morning, and in fact lost all urge to smoke cigarettes, a habit I had picked up a couple of years before. Unfortunately it didn't last and I started to smoke again a week later, but it was still a great feeling. Overall I am happy with the experience but now that I've tried it a couple more times I feel as though I've cheated myself in a way, as the drug was taken out of context with its original purpose... I.e. not ritualistically. I think with a proper guide you could positively alter your life and break down any issues you've had over the years. I'll stop ranting now, haha. Thoughts? I agree with you absalom, obtaining ingredients locally is the better choice, but the hostilis and rue my friend used were from a trusted source. As far as what kind it was, I'm not exactly sure.