The documentary I'M DANGEROUS WITH LOVE, directed by Michel Negroponte, brings viewers face to face with real stories of drug addiction, withdrawal and recovery, following closely the underground practice of administering Iboga, a psychedelic plant medicine commonly used in Bwiti ceremonies. Iboga has been covertly used to treat addiction in the U.S. since the 1960's.
After a long absence I again find myself surrounded by the lost, the dieing. Those that can not, do not see their dire predicament. Many will blot out the events of only yesterday in the pursuit of what they "need". I sense their hardness brought on by lives not worth living. A young man trembles from his cravings.
It's been difficult to write as of late, so sorry for the delay. As it happens, I am recently out of the hospital from a bad fall wherein I needed surgery to put some broken bones back together. The narcotic pain killers have also numbed my ability to tell my story, though, truth be told, this is my third attempt at writing the next installment of my story.
For about seven weeks now I have been waking up every morning to my own complaints about life as I frustratedly, furiously, annoyingly, and sometimes passionately, write three daily pages in hopes to “get to” my genius. The one that’s supposedly buried under layers of all the bullshit I tend to think. At least that’s what I have come to find out about myself in these past weeks.
As most children as a child I was very concerned about the environment, nature, humanity, the animals. I was terrified by the thread of the atom bomb and people and animals dying of pollution.
When a truck passed me while driving to school on my bicycle I would keep my breath in as long as I could to not to inhale the poisonous exhausian gases. I was convinced it would expand my longevity.
She stood silent at the edge of the poppy field. The air was bittersweet. As she stared into the night, she realized that she would never return. Until now she had stayed away from the poppies because she knew how badly she wanted them.
Can't stop.
Don't want to.
Up late drunk, make more.
Any inspiring event, make more.
New poetry blog, make more.
Why make it?
Why not?
It's the least commercially promising writing.
It's the least common.
It's the least I can do for myself.
What else would allow me to be so seductive and insane simultaneously.
Despite statistics, which would have you believe otherwise, the fact is that an overwhelming majority of treatment centers have terrible records in helping people achieve long-term success. I know this to be true as I have completed numerous treatment protocols and have first hand knowledge of the staggering rates of relapse by witnessing my fellow patients.
It would be better to be your bliss then to experience it. - This is a thought I am left with after I watch the Ram Dass video posted in this blog post. But I also have another thought regarding addiction...
1. Try to cook/prepare/order meals that contain the 6 essential flavors: sweet, sour, salty, pungent, bitter and astringent. The physiological (rather than psychology) urge to over-eat comes from a lack of satiation. The brain sends signals of satiation when the tongue comes into contact with all of those tastes (which represent the array of a balanced nutritional profile).
Before I start, I wanted to recommend something that I think it would be in everyone’s best interest to spend the hour to watch. It is a special called “Digital Nation” that Frontline has done on technology and our rapidly changing society. The reason that I would strongly suggest this to everyone is because we are so immersed in our technology nowadays - and that technology is changing so quickly - that it is really important for people to stop and just take a look at what it is doing to us.
THE ROLE OF TEACHER PLANTS IN HEALING ADDICTIONS
How Amazonian shamans are using ayahuasca, San Pedro and other jungle medicines to achieve up to 75% success rates in freeing people from addictions while the best Western models achieve only 30% success
By Tracie Thornberry with Ross Heaven
A good review of preceding articles about the Dragon blood which was BOTH the high Magdalen AND the Draco vampiric in the Grail bloodline, see http://www.goldenmean.info/blood
I read an article in today's paper headlined: Tanning's Dark Secret: Study finds the facilities can become addictive. The article spoke to the point that tanning activates the same parts of the brain triggered by drug dependence. Apparently in a blind study, groups of people who tanned and then were deprived of tanning underwent a withdrawal.
Illegal prescription drug use is rampant. Why wouldn't it be? Pharmaceutical companies spend millions of dollars annually to assure that our nation's physicians dole out prescription drugs on a continual basis. Stronger, longer lasting drugs are finding their way to our family medicine cabinets where smaller, inquisitive hands can easily reach out and grab them.
I am reading here at the library considering these last hours of community service as a computer aid. I really dont have to do much, the librarians are just glad they can pawn off the redundant questions to me, the aid. I have all the patience in the world at their disposal. I find it facinating that one can look at a gmail sign up page and see walls of towering stone.
"Banish the word 'struggle' from your attitude and your vocabulary. All that we do now must be done in a sacred manner and in celebration.
We are the ones we have been waiting for." — Hopi elders
