ah, saturn.

where am i?

these days i find myself entering a new realm of growth so focused on the physical for the first time in my life.  my body.  it's come to pass that that second house virgo saturn that passing glance would say had to to with my "irresponsibility" in the realms of the financial actually has to do with where i personally find value (oh, the joys of breaking through the membrane that defines value in terms of that $ sign), and therefore, what i've been neglecting.  my body.  i've spent so long living in my mind that while i do, of course, enjoy my body and the amazing adventures it's tumbled me through, i have a ton of work to do on this, the vehicle of my ability to share what i've learned with the world.  back surgery six years ago, nerve damage, hip problems, weight issues...this 29 year old version of me has more work to do. 

midway through this lovely two year period of my life, i found myself literally stranded away from home with nothing but time to really delve into astrology and it's symbolism and always subjective yet never meek meanings, and apply them directly to my life and my situation.  see, i'd broken my ankle in two places. my body was demanding a reboot.  and lord, if this saturn business hasn't thrown several wrenches in my side since them.  freak ice storms blanketing the hill where i live, making mobility in a cast impossible was possibly my favorite 10 day phase.

so now, i find myself at the end of a two week whole foods cleanse with a whole new awareness of what i need to do to bring my body up to speed with my mind.  i suppose the awareness has always been there, and sometimes the will even arrives at that point too. but i can no longer ignore that having the knowledge and not putting it to use is just a rabid invite for further complication.  and i love my body.  i love full, fluid movement, through the hips and down my spine.  and i'll use that love (and that virgo practicality i've never been able to relate to) to push me forward.