Temporal Ghosting

Temporal Ghosting
Part I
By BardoBob

I had a vision-quest not too long ago and received a bit of insight into the nature of our perception of time and the subsequent structure of all our understanding of the nature of reality attached to it. I have been guiding my journeys under the instructions laid out by a great teacher and friend, Terence McKenna; 5g dried in silent darkness.

I have been experiencing a familiar landscape in the last few journeys and I can’t help but wonder if this is merely a landscape I have yet to progress past, or if this is THE spot where “it” happens, creation and death in sync, in un-judging harmony with one another. I won’t be so boisterous as to presume that I have accessed the sacred-space per se, it’s only that it appears as the point where it’s happening and that all that is must branch from this point, this place of where intention and creation manifest and spread. It feels as though its all in a thought, just think it into being and *poof* it is. My issue is that I am dealing with some residual messianic psychosis of some kind (maybe, I am not sure). What happens is I get to this place and it’s an Alex Grey-like space like in the picture attached to this piece. When I have arrived it’s an unheard but felt voice, all-surrounding, all connected to the weaving of dimensions writhing in front of me. I get the feeling it’s up to me, all of it. I have the power of a god, to create it all, to destroy whatever I like. I get the “Hello, welcome to the epicenter, now what”?

And that’s where I freeze, locked in a gaze with some entity that seems to be the central overmind of this dimension. I don’t trust myself with such power; I couldn’t possibly, what if I mishandle it? This is the deadlock point of my last few sessions, I flee in terror of the magnitude (thank god it’s as easy as opening my eyes) or I just sit there and stare at the awesomeness of this space, all the while the entity shows no loss of patience calmly waiting for me to make up my mind.

A revelation that has come from this however is a profound and deep understanding of the absurdity of time itself. Yes it exists as a pattern of sorts, but in what we can only perceive to this point as a fractal universe, of course symmetry will be an intrinsic characteristic of the system. This relates things like sacred geometry, resonance fields, the time-wave zero theory, the theory of relativity, basically all scientific theories and endeavors that have a basis in the temporal. This suggests to me the theories of quantum physics and non-locality now, for me, have personal validity.

From this however a great personal dichotomy has emerged, to be more specific; when the vision has disappeared and I have returned from this experience. This landscape is perceived in what we call the “peak” of the trip, but this, for me lasts 1 hour and 30 minutes approximately. When this has ended I can only describe my state of self as dualistic I suppose. By that I mean that I am “here” experiencing this “reality”, but I have the knowledge and visceral sense of expanded consciousness coloring the former. I feel the absurdity and emptiness of this place, our consensual reality per se. All objects fossils frozen in a temporal hologram, nothing like the objects that reside in the latter where all feels alive, pulses energy, and is indicative that “all is connected”. I would like to point out however that this is not a sense of dystopia, rather I clutch to the thought that the other world is accessible, if only I take the sacrament again.

This is the first of a series I am hoping to create to bring forth my experiences to serve the community. In one sense to share a common thread with those who use entheogens in a shamanic framework, and also to show to those who are “on the fence” about such issues, simply because they choose to avoid these harrowing experiences (for their own personal and equally valid reasons) or who would rather expand their understanding of what’s “going on” by listening to the words of others who do go, such as myself.

I am currently studying the psilocybin cubensis species in a shamanic framework at this time, with hopefully a new experience and another addition to this series in the next few days, courage-willing of course.