A love letter.

** I wrote this to someone a while ago and I feel that I should share this. Maybe some of you will feel me. I have to be honest. I have never in my life been in love or have someone be in love with me. However it does not stop me from looking for love everyday as hard as it can be at times. I not only want to fall in love for the first time. But I want to learn how to be loved and how to use love to make me a better person. All I want is love. **

My dear friend

I am starting to believe part of being alive is learning what love is. To see how it heals us and brings the best out of our selves. And how without love it can weaken and harm us.

What love was (romantic love in this context) to you before you fell in love was one thing. You never knew it. All you had was ideas or clues of what love was. Being from movies, books, seeing a couple on the street, ect…

Then one day you met a woman and fell in love for the first time. From that moment on your idea and beliefs about love changed.

I'm sure you love Starr.

However since she is a different from the first, second and third woman you fell in love with. The love you feel for her is unique. It’s special can can’t ever be felt for anther person.

(Remind her of this).

Each time you fall in love you learn something new about what it is your heart can feel. You learn how to develop a part of yourself that can benefit others and yourself in the long run. With so many kinds of people and experiences to have with them. The amount of love and the ways you can love a person are limitless.

If you do feel any love for me (not necessary romantic love) don’t feel weird or guilty or strange about it. It is what it is. You feel how you feel and it’s an amazing thing to feel anything honest and pure these days. You and I are going to have our own journey that is no more or less valued and unique then any other experience you have with anyone else that you love.

( Also don’t let Starr's insecurity, control and fear cage your ability to love others either. )

I know you are someone who has to come to things at his own pace. I know you love the freedom you have to roam around. I know how important honestly, respect, grace, and finding out your own place in the universe is.

I want anything that we do have now and will later to help enhance these things.

Nor do I want what we share to get in the way of the journey you and Starr are supposed to have together in this life either.

Like I said I feel something deep in me for you that is warm and sparkly like fireworks.

It is not going to fade. It will always remain for you.

I know the experiences we are supposed to have and when you are ready for that. We will have them. Till then I will help you with the current relationship that you have with yourself and any other ones you have.

Keep being the wonderful person that you are.

Filled with fire works.

From Jules