I wanted to share a happy tear filled moment with you

I always have always had this desire to give people what I never have. I want to help people feel loved, cared for, secure, wanted, valued, respected, understood, and beautiful.

Being alone and feeling it become one with yourself is a sad experience.

I don’t want anyone to feel or deal with any of the hardships I have. I know what it is like to be beaten by the world.

Today I was informed by a woman Jamyna who I got to know from my Pod Casting days that I give her this feeling. She told me that she feels like her life has meaning when she talks online to me or reads my blogs.
I never knew being myself could actually make others feel better.

I always felt like I had to give things to people like massages, tarot card readings, sex, food, money, a places to sleep, ect. I am so used to people bringing me down for being myself that this is an actual first for me.
Being thanked for being myself warms my heart on a level that’s felt cold and dark for a long time.

It’s strange how a woman who I may never meet on the streets can make me feel more by saying one simple little simple thing. Then any person has in my day to day life has in my whole life.

So to honor Jamyna I am going to be the best version of myself for her.
Because I make her feel less alone in this world and give her a reason for being alive.