High Meditation

I smoked tonight and decided to meditate. It was my first time smoking in a few weeks; three hits off the blunt and I was ripped.

I sat down in meditation and began to follow my breath. I picked up right away on my ego trying to disguise itself as some sort of meditation phenomena. The inner dialog began. I became aware that I had said "Your ego." I turned my attention to this notion.

"Your ego..."

"Your ego..."

"Your ego..."

Like a circle of liberation, the thought cycled. I just became aware of this statement. Who's ego? What has the ego? Who has the ego? What is there behind this ego?

I had a realization that freed me from the confines of my created self... I realized I was everything. We really are our own worst enemies. None of this spiritual talk can really get you there, it has to be understood and felt.

I'm already saying too much. These experiences are so hard to put into words.

We're all already enlightened. That's the paradox. It's not about getting anywhere, it's about what's left when everything's gone. The emptiness can be glimpsed at.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=upQPmWCJo1g