The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same

Before I even knew about Evolver I wrote in my journal that I felt that there was a change happening in me, I could feel it seeping in, as if through my pores...I didn't know what it was, but I could feel it, slowly, but nevertheless happening. I have always been in tune with my dreams and intuition at a young age, but I never thought I could make it grow stronger. I have had the kind of dreams that end up happening. Lately I've been feeling conflicted and alone, I feel that I want to better understand these abilities but I'm afraid of losing myself to the point of not being able to come back. I try not to dwell on negative thoughts, but this entire past week I have been, and I've come to notice that my dreams have become very chaotic and I wake up flustered or uncomfortable. I don't want to dwell on this negative energy because it's not only affecting me during my waking life, but it follows me in my dreams as well. It seems that whenever I start to get somewhere, whether it's a personal goal, or growing intuitively I come to an impasse, and that's when I begin to struggle and feel lost. I know that in the end it does not matter if everyone believes in me and what I want to do, if I cannot believe in myself then nothing will be achieved. I know that the energy you carry inside will manifest itself with what you do and how you go about getting it. Sometimes I think all of these things are going wrong in my life and I start getting down and out, but once I check my attitude and start finding solutions and things that make me laugh and smile instead, it seems that everything is back on track once again. I just want to continue holding on to that positive energy, the energy that makes me dream, the energy that brings out the best in me and all I want to do. "When each day is the same as the next, it's because people fail to recognize the good things that happen in their lives every day that the sun rises" -The Alchemist
Keep on dreamin.

-Carcar<3