Kinda like Chess I Think

I find it hard to think for myself, or know when I'm thinking for myself when it seems like the agenda of everyone else is to dictate what I am thinking. Yes I mean me personally. But not individually. Collectivley we are all victims of mind control on a manipulative level. I don't mean like puppets on a string but more like through suggestion and manipulation of our desires, and our fears. I have to say I am growing tired of this game. Seriously tired. When does it stop? How did we let it get this far? Where should I direct my anger and how should I act? Should we act to change this? I think so. But we are scared deep down I think of the risk. Do I believe in violence. No, I do not. I believe violence begets violence and should be avoided at all costs. If I were to act I would act passivley, peacefully. But passive and peacefull men tend to meet bloody ends as well. Am I an important man, no. I'm just another guy, struggling to eat and keep shelter from the elements. But I keep feeling the effects of this monumental power struggle that is occuring in what seems like 20 miles above my head. I keep getting hit by debris and I can smell the smoke of oppression and deceit. I must admit I feel a little caution at even posting this blog. Is that American? No it isn't. I should never feel afraid of posting my thoughts and beliefs for anyone to see. But I am. I'll admit it, I am a little. That in it's self says a lot. I'm afraid I'm out of time. I have to go make my meager but honest living now. Just thinking outloud again. You know this is good therapy really, lol.