How do you feel?
posted by Desire | May 28, 2010
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IcerocketHow do you feel? I mean really, how do you feel?
I feel, guilty about the oil catastrophe. I watch an oil soaked pelican and feel sick.
I feel helpless, I feel partly dead, lifeless.
I feel unconnected with who I am, who I need to be – I see who I need to be and I’m not him. COME ON EVOLVE YOU LAZY MEATSACK!
I feel tired from pushing the boulder up the daily hill – not just the personal economic one to feed clothe and shelter myself, but the interpersonal one of doing my best to help the ones I know, the ones I love, my ex wife who valiantly struggles to survive against many odds. My son who’s trying to grow and evolve himself in this world. Tired from coming up against the majority who are pushing harder than ever for business as usual – full steam ahead and damn the torpedos! AAAgh – too much PUSHING – but is that just life?
I feel angry….what to do what to do – BURN IT ALL DOWN – EVERYTHING - JUST BURN IT!!!
I feel thrilled that change is in the air.
I feel that something is coming. I look for ways to pierce the curtain of ‘reality’ with thought. (Like Ewan in the ‘goats’ movie who successfully de-reals the wall and runs through it.) I think about the influence of consciousness on DNA and wonder if I can amplify and help the effect and add a multiplier to the changes within. I don’t really feel that change yet.
I feel bifurcated between my higher and lower self. Who will win? It’s a grudge match.
I feel like I’m learning a new language. ‘Reality’ is changing and language as the mirror of reality must keep up – how do I describe new things? New ways of looking at things? New emotions, feelings, ideas…?
I feel at once inadequate, lacking, wanting, useless, and at the same time powerful, filled with all things that I may need, and right where I need to be.
I’m out of date and the newest thing the world has seen all at the same time. I know all the ‘old stuff’ but now there’s a whole ‘new stuff’ to learn – it starts to feel like a birth into the unknown, that is at the same time ancient… an unknown future that I can remember if I try.
I feel like I’m trying effortlessly.
So, how do you feel?
Comments
the fact that you have written this
— May 28, 2010
and that I am responding now proves that you are not trying effortlessly.
I think this is a great and passionate blog and I'm glad you wrote it. I understand completely how you feel and many of us prolly do feel the same. I would love to burn everything down, yet compassion stays the hand the torch is in. I would love to scream at the top of my lungs that life is not fair and this and that, but I know that my life is the way god and I planned it so I calm down and find something productive to do. I feel bad about the oil spill, yet I did not do it, and I could not have stopped the rig from going in the ground in the first place by myself so I don't carry it like a dead weight, God wouldn't want me to feel so bad about something I had no control over. However, we do have control over a great many things and we need to gain it back and do something with it.
We have control over our own personal actions and thoughts and so we must keep love alive and the spirit of life in general and compassion and we can do something with the life we feel inside ourselves. We can do something with our own personal power. We the individual and collective whole have waaaaaaaaayyyyy more power inside us than we think and we need to find it and unleash it and it is happening, keep believing it is and it it will. Keep the peace inside yourself, keep the passion for a new world inside as a seed and let it blossom and grow with the god given love inside you and with those around you. Make the world a better place by starting in your own heart and mind and then spread that to others, by example, and lights will go on and life will be restored, slowly but surely. It's true.
so anyway, I'm doing fine and I hope you find the peace you seek and whatever else you need to have a super fantastic life. thank you for asking.
In Lak'ech Ala K'in
Hello Kitty :)
— May 28, 2010
It just sort of occured to me today to check into my feelings and I became interested in how other evolovers are feeling too - I think I hear you say you feel pretty balanced...which is great :) ... I think I feel balanced too but with a pretty strong awareness of the poles on either side too - horror and wonder in harmony... ? Is that even possible? Should it be possible? Hmmmm....
I felt the same way two
— May 28, 2010
I felt the same way two weeks ago. Really the exact way, and it started because I got so upset about the oil catastrophe. I got so frustrated with being.
But things change. And I feel better now, more renewed, more surrendered to reality. The waters of reality flow on and on and on and on and on, and with them my inner reality as well. On and on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on. It's like this moment being infinite. It's infinite because I'm infinitely in this moment, even though I don't always remember. It's all the same moment, forever. And that's good or bad or anything just depending. And now I'm lead to end my sporadic ramble and hit "post comment" and continue on. And on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on.
"And the light shines on / While we all ride on." - Trey Anastasio
breathe in, breathe out...
— May 29, 2010
Stop and listen and feel and breathe. Slow, deliberate breaths. Gaze at something in nature, don't study it, just gaze and breathe.
A friend of mine would say that to me in my more stressed days. I didn't get it until I did it. Funny, it works.
The anger comes when you push. Fritz Pearls, a Gestalt therapist wrote a book entitled, "Don't Push the River." the title alone makes sense.
focus on something other than the current. Maybe read a few Zen Koans. I like those.
As you will see, here, you are not alone in the flux of your awareness and feelings.
Breathe in, breathe out.
feeling good
— May 29, 2010
My feeling (personally accepted felling) is based upon living true to purpose or growth. Long standing purposes, general ones and specifics ones seeking synergies combined. Feels great really ;-)
Sure, it is easy to feel some bad vibes, some false purposes, even some really bad mind controlled, dumbed down slaved agendas. My remedy is the simple synergy test, see if it can flow. Where then from here-- Again simple, for me, does it it fit free will flows. Or is it mind controlled wasted time or further below.
