A Contemplation of Consciousness and a Desire to Transcend

We have all been called. We have chosen this digital collection of information as a medium to directly share our thoughts only because technology is filling the void of our inability to communicate thoughts directly, and have those thoughts be directly interpreted by another individual. The language we use to verbally symbolize our thoughts is English, but in my opinion the depth and breadth of our thoughts are not so easily communicated through sound vibrations.

We have become so complex. As an organism, an individual, a society, a global community. Most of humanity on this physical plane continues on with their individual lives, doing individual tasks, mainly concerned with a small area of experience. They have either just forgotten who they are, where they were from, or are forced to do so because of their environmental surroundings, physical needs, or cultural programming.

But there is something happening beneath the surface of the directly tangible. To the humans that have embarked on a path of self searching, truth seeking, and conscious awareness this is clearly evident. We are all setting in motion something that cannot be stopped. We are all trying to quantify, explain, understand, and explore our conscious realm. It has become evident to us that there is very much more than just a physical finite world, with finite boundaries, finite solutions, and finite lives. So much of our scientific endeavor has been to quantify, rationalize, explain in terms that are divisible and quantifiable. Scientists who work to understand those concepts which are not directly tangible are now discredited and ignored by the mainstream scientific community, dismissed as "pseudo-science". Power structures have evolved whose sole purpose has been to divide us, separate us, and enrich themselves.

But things are changing...rapidly.

Much of the evolution of humanity in our known history has been cyclical. We understand that these cycles are happening faster and faster. We can all tell something is happening but we cannot quite "put our finger on it". It not so easy to put our "finger" on a concept that is much bigger than ourselves, until we can see ourselves as part of a larger whole, a larger self.

I wish to share my recent findings of my self and my own consciousness. I will try to be brief and coherent, but I am still struggling with my own inability to express myself.

On July 10th I had an experience I will not soon forget. Much of my time since that experience has been trying to understand it, and then explain it to others. I was watching a man named Nassim Haramein explain his Grand Unified Theory in his DVD set called Crossing the Event Horizon. I had seen it before but I was sharing it with a friend. After about two hours he had begun to explain his geometric model of the vacuum, or what I would refer to as the structure of "ether". Simply put, he explains that so much of our science concentrates on the radiative nature of the universe, we forget that for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. To believe that the universe is a random vacuum that has a finite boundary and things are just taking place in chemical, sub-atomic, and cosmic reactions seems completely ignorant at worst, and unimaginative at best.

We forget how highly structured and complex as organisms we really are. If we took the DNA from our bodies, and placed each strand end to end, and wrapped it around the circumference of the Earth, it would go 5 million times.

Or if you prefer ~1,297 times the distance from the Sun to the Earth. (Take a moment to think about that)

This is an EXTREME amount of structure and organization to take place in just one human being and just IMAGINE how much data and information is coded into all of the beautiful, diverse life on this planet.

He theorizes that the fundamental geometric structure for all quanta of the vacuum density contract in a pattern that is a 64 star-tetrahedron. It exists in perfect equilibrium inside of a sphere, and repeats fractally at the octave. He goes on to explain the fractal nature of this structure and the universe. My attention is so focused that my head begins to feel light or charged. As I visualize his lecture in my mind's eye my perception becomes unusually heightened and my vision begins to mix with my mind's eye.

He goes on to talk about how as we divide in the womb our cells fit this structure PERFECTLY at the division of 64 cells. And once every cell divides again (to 128), it becomes identifiable as a certain type of cell (bone, blood, skin, nerve, etc.). He goes on to show how the human embryo perfectly mimics the evolution of all life on earth during gestation from single-celled, to multicellular, to aquatic, amphibian, mammalian, then finally human. Then I remember vividly at this point he says, '"look at the most simple example of the fractal nature of our universe, look at human beings. PEOPLE COME OUT OF PEOPLE".

At this point my head is just reeling and I have to close my eyes, then something happens that I cannot describe well with words. I leave. I go somewhere else very, very fast, it feels like I'm just expanding. I do not know if I have a body but I can feel. I can feel connected to something, possibly everything. There is no time. All there is, just is. I could see how an infinite being conscious of itself would begin to play or dance. It would begin to breathe. Break up little bits of itself and mold them into little things. Some how I feel like I am viewing the process of life. I understand the fractal model, I understand the need for repetition. I understand that infinity is just merely understanding without needing to divide or quantify. Rather than explain in terms of quantity I choose to explain in terms of how I divide the all-prevailing substance that is. How to differentiate one piece form the other. How to connect the pieces. I see the Earth covered with water. I see it teeming with life. The oceans receding, the life taking form on land. I feel as if all history is a part of my history.

Then I come back down into myself. I do not know how long it lasted, or if it even happened at all, but something clicks in me. I turn of the TV, and I stand up and I just start talking. I have to get it all out and try and explain to her what just happened. I feel like I just witnessed the most important thing I have ever witnessed in my life. I ramble and rant, sometimes coherent, sometimes not. She gives me an odd look, not knowing if I’m being serious. The look fades when the first 30 minutes pass and I have not stopped talking or pacing. Her roommate comes out after the first hour goes by. The roommate leaves because she feels uncomfortable. The second hour passes and she begins to interrupt and ask questions. I try harder and harder to explain, but I don't feel as if I'm talking. I just feel like radio that's been turned to a very high frequency, and I'm just relaying what is on the waves. She scribbles some notes down that I tell her are important, but now its 2 AM and I've been talking for over three hours and I have to go home. Work tomorrow. But I cannot sleep. I do not know what is happening to me. I look up at the stars and the moon after I get out of the car. I wonder and begin to walk, at some point in time, I come home. I do not sleep I just close my eyes. I get up the next morning and I pace. Much of the initial "energy" has left me but I try to tell my roommates about what happened to me. There is little interest if not some concern. I am obviously not myself. I try to look at the notes I feverishly wrote down after I came home, but the same feeling of urgency and understanding is not there.

The wonder and awe of the experience has still stayed with me. Obviously at times I have to completely forget and go about the mundane aspects of life or I become distracted, but the feeling never left.

This is the part where it gets odd or somewhat unbelievable. Since that day, I noticed something odd about me physically. Deep inside the center of my head I get an odd, resonant feeling. Sometimes it feels like my nose is "vibrating". I try and dismiss the feeling as "you're just imagining it". Weeks go by and the feeling does not go away. It seems as if I can consciously intensify it through mediation and focus. After two months I can feel it in the roof of my mouth as well. Sometimes it causes my lower jaw to vibrate and my teeth chatter very rapidly. Now the feeling has become coupled with the occasional "snapping" sound. The only thing I can describe as similar is when you have a bad sinus cold and you blow your nose hard and some sinus pressure is relieved the change in air pressure is sometime audible. I don't know if this is a medical condition or just something "weird" happening, but only started after the "event" happened to me.

Regardless to say my hunger for knowledge and ability to relate to others has kicked into a kind of "overdrive". It's made me extremely sensitive to the spiritual nature of things along with my own. I am beginning to build a beautiful picture in my head, but I will not be able to paint it myself. I may be totally incorrect my own theories and perceptions, but I have a burning desire to share and learn.

I think all of us here have some sort of desire to understand the more intangible, mystical, and beautiful aspects of our existence on Earth. We recognize all of the things that have become horribly corrupt and unsustainable in all of our pillars of society. We have seen the how shaky the foundations have become of irrelevant institutions and archaic modes of thought. We see an ever-approaching shift in our time. I believe the answer to our problems lies in the exploration and evolution of our consciousness. It starts with the individual and spreads to the group.

This is how all of life evolves. The "100th Monkey Effect". Once a breakthrough has been discovered, whether it is an ape using a tool for food, or a single celled organism having to synthesize a protein. Life evolves when an organism must change to better survive in is surrounding environment. Sound familiar?

So what is consciousness, and if we have to change to survive, how can we evolve it, what does this mean for our species? The following theories/findings, and I hope they will be useful to you. Either if you agree or disagree, I hope your point of view can benefit in some way.

Consciousness is the feedback loop of the universe learning and drawing experience from itself. Our point of perception, our senses allow us to take in information into our soul/body/mind complex, and radiate information back to the universe. None of this information is ever lost and it is all stored. The ways in which we can assimilate information and exist in better harmony with our surroundings allows us to better experience life in a more holistic fashion. From our reference as an individual, sentient being, we have the ability to to co-create reality in many various ways, but mainly through the manipulation of existing tangible matter, the interpretation of wave-forms/vibration via our senses, and application of thought process drawn from past experience to create our current experience in the present.

The ability to think in terms in terms self awareness was crucial to our ancestors, but had to be adapted to exist with other-selves in order to survive. We have always had a social/tribal instinct, but society flourished and evolved into higher complexity in environments free of struggle (path of least resistance). Life from our frame of consciousness only differs from other life by or order of complexity, but we all evolve in the same way.

Evolution happens in fits and spurts. It is usually driven by a successful assimilation of information met with a change in environment that allows the organism to become more complex. Can you feel 50 trillion cells working in harmony and tandem with each other making up your physical body and dividing at one million cells a second? Our physical bodies are sacred beautiful vehicles that allow for the universe to be experienced (information assimilation and radiation). The purpose of life is to evolve into an organism that can better respond to its environment.

We are living in a time where we are faced by more challenges than we have ever faced before on an absolutely global level. The monetary system is unraveling because it needs to expand infinitely in order to be sustained, and is trying to do so via means of private interests (aka Fed/Banker cartel). Peak oil has already passed and energy consumption via fossil fuels and archaic combustion technology is driving the planet to the brink of collapse through pollution and energy extraction. Mainstream society is trapped in a follow the leader/low order consciousness stifling individual power and crippling the meaningful change.

Spirituality and Science must find common ground in order for us to further our experience as sentient life and face the current challenges. Institutions that exist solely for the purpose of maintaining their existence or growing and do not benefit the evolution and preservation of life have absolutely no place in the future of humanity. If you lack the will to change or imagination to envision a better future, you lack the means to survive. I believe the two practices of Science and Spirituality are converging at an alarming rate. I also believe evolution is exponential and cyclical, we will enter cycles faster and faster until a "zero point" where things will emerge completely different than anything previously imagined. Technologies are being worked on now that can access zero-point/free energy and will change our lives forever. Dan Winters has provided a wonderful body of research on auras, golden mean ratio and fractality, and the cause of gravity and electromagnetic phase conjugation. His work perfectly corroborates Nassim’s theory of the universe made of scalar black holes. These are invaluable perspectives and merit mass media coverage, yet our fear-based society would find little belief in them.

I believe doom and gloom/catastrophe is only an outcome for a fear-saturated consciousness. The path to love and light is easily accessible for the properly oriented organism. I believe that you and I are here to create a better world and help each other grow and evolve. Most of all, I believe all is one. We cannot separate ourselves from the beautiful ecosystem of life on earth, we must live in a symbiotic relationship. We have forgotten our true nature, our true connection to all things. Live with love, compassion, and a mind open to all possibilities and everything falls into place. As much quoted, “we are the ones we have been waiting for”. Do not wait to take action to change the world you are a part of.