Drugs

I finally want to publicly share what I've gathered from my experiences. If I don't, they were just My experiences. I have to share what I've learned because I feel like I was blessed by being given the abundant opportunities to view the world from many wonderful and new perspectives. I decided to be ambitious and set a good amount of time to clear many of the toxins from my body afterwards so that I have clearer access to the memories , and the mental clarity I need to share what I know to the best of my ability.

I was somehow able to personally experience and personally witness almost everything i was ever curious about regarding drugs. Which drugs? All of them. No, I have not tried every drug once. Yes, I have seen at least 1 person under the influence of every drug or some combination of 2 or more. (yeah, San Francisco be crazayyy)
Anyway,
I chose to learn about altered states of mind. I find nothing wrong with taking risks and observing the results with as full an awareness as possible.
I am not going to explain how or where I was able to see and witness the following or with who.

All drugs are very powerful. Whether you end up realizing it or not, every time you do any drug, your body mind and soul are altered. After having an altered state, you will not be the same. Even if you aren't aware of how you have changed, you have. This is true for all input, for all life experiences. I've found it to be especially true with drugs.

Sometimes what you gain is very positive, very profound, and sometimes is it only positive while you're high. Some drugs make you feel bigger, better, more powerful, more popular, more attractive, more funny (than someone else). These drugs feed your ego. They create huge lessons for you. Other drugs expand your consciousness, and make you say "NO WONDER I DID THAT/AM THIS WAY" or "No wonder the world is this way" "No wonder I surround myself with these things" while simultaneously filling you FULL of wonder. These drugs dissolve your ego.

Different people will attract themselves to certain drugs and use them in many different ways. Some people experiment with one thing at a time, in between gaps of sobriety. You get much more out of the experience each time by doing it this way, but every time you do any drug for the first time you get a slap on the face with a new perspective of life. New territory can scare some people if they fear change. These people might keep away from psychoactive drugs because these drugs might hand you your life from an "outsiders" perspective. People who don't understand the universal concept of connectedness and All is One will be very very confused on a large mushroom dose, for example.

DMT: DMT is a natural neurotransmitter that is produced by your pineal gland, which is located in the center of your brain, while you sleep (it is the same hallucinogen that creates dreams) AND in heavy doses right before you die. It is more illegal than heroin. it is in every living thing. There is something extremely profound about this drug, needless to say. We forget the experience in the same process as we forget our dreams. It is like trying to catch smoke. We can start talking about it as soon as we're awake, but we find almost instantly saying "Wait, what happened again??.. i just had it! How did i forget??" What happens when you are experiencing a DMT trip (So now I'm referring to both dreaming and taking the drug, since it is the same) transcends time and space. You are literally transported into another dimension of reality. One in which time has no factor. You can go anywhere, anytime, any number of times, with whoever you want even if you havent met them, anything and any emotion you want even if it doesn't "normally" exist. You could have a body, but you probably won't. The matter in physical reality is much more dense, but now, seemingly less real. DMT alone proves that we are just one linear perspective projected from the dimensions above.

LSD: Despite what many people have experienced, I find LSD and mushrooms to be worlds different. Starting with the similarity of heightened consciousness, sensitivity to everything, and breathing "inanimate" objects and surfaces, I already notice a distinct difference. While on mushrooms I am intensely physically connected to everything, and the energy is flowing through, around and out of me. On acid I feel more conceptually connected to everything. I've experienced mostly feeling In my body, completely confused because absolutely everything contradicts itself. When I look around I intensely see myself reflected (again, conceptually) in every single thing. I see stories and characteristics within normally "separate" places, people, and ideas. A person to me is another universe, and I see why I love someone, what and why we must learn from one another, right now. No other time. Past and future do not exist, because we are in one eternal Now moment.

Mushrooms: I've had a few completely different experiences with mushrooms. I've had the greatest moments in my life on mushrooms. I've had the most terrifying: the first time was the most persistent of horror, and after that nothing lasted longer than 5 minutes. I learned quickly how to turn it around. Most of my experiences had me feeling especially as though i was made of air and liquid, I felt light and I felt my surroundings connected to me.. everything was mostly air, or space. At this level you can really see that everything is made up of different organizations of the same exact thing. We may look separate and different, but we are not. You will notice the patterns in everything, the synchronicities in everything. I notice that everything is absolutely beautiful. Everything is a magnificent piece of artwork, it is all a stroke of genius. I can never seem to get over how amazingly beautiful everything is. I get so emotional because of it, my body fills with the most potent form of joy I can comprehend.
On the other hand, a bad trip will have you face to face with everything that has went wrong in your life, and everything that you fear. Allow the trip to happen with as little resistance as possible, and you will realize why things went wrong before, why you cared so much to teach yourself this lesson, and complete awareness of what you learned from it. You might face your fears to their extremity, which is actually worse than anything that will happen in real life. Let is happen with little resistance, and you will lose your fears. Keep your eyes open a little longer after that and you'll realize everything happened at just the right time, everything is perfect. You realize your life unfolded in a way that every previous moment was exactly what needed to happen to get here, and to get where you want, in just the right way.

MDMA: The drug more commonly known as ecstasy (Specifically, MDMA might be known as "Molly" when it is pure MDMA; ecstasy is usually cut, and MDA, or sass. Safrole comes from a plant and converts naturally in the liver into MDA). This drug is really interesting because it seems to prove that your attitude can change the entire outcome of a situation. The state of ecstasy is actually attainable, and it's better than the drug because it is a phenomena that synchronizes with your brain chemical's natural flow instead of against it. When you are ecstatic, everything goes right, everyone you see you're so in love with, and you take the actions you might normally be too anxious to take, but are actually the ones that make your life perfect. If you pay attention, you'll probably see ecstasy is attainable in a special sober circumstance. Again, this drug is a doorway, to see what is possible beyond the "level" we are currently in. To do this drug a lot will make your life harder, at least temporarily.

Ketamine is completely different. The most profound experiences were lessons of time. People have been known to see into the future, revisit the past under a new light, experience their own death and experience infinite reality. A low dose will give you a radically new perspective of life. It's hard to put my finger on it but i always seem to get in this wonderful disbelief sort of awe about the amazing people I'm with and the situations that I manifested for myself, you love your position in life so much and you feel like it is all your creation. On a higher dose you start to disconnect from yourself. If you're with a group of people you might lose sense of separation between you and them, you might see everyone from a distance, you might embody the perspective of the wall, or a shoe on the ground. Your consciousness is no longer obligated to stay in your body. You can go anywhere. I've had an experience where I was sitting down and my body instantaneously turned into a ever-shifting landscape of infinite possibilities. I would start running across my leg and as i progressed it would turn into a more detailed version of whatever i wanted, i could run into a forest or start flying; everything was malleable. Another experience I had was very different. I was in a room with 5 or 6 people all who i had known for at least 6 months. During the ketamine trip, my consciousness shifted awareness back about 6 months when we were all in the same room. Only I felt completely different about everyone. I felt how i felt about them 6 months prior to that. it was very difficult to comprehend but what happened next was completely uncharted for me. My perspectives of these people started moving through time, from 6 months ago forward, and i felt how my emotions and i guess you could say, personal standing, with each person shifted. I was witnessing the progression of our relationship Just mapped out right in front of me.
Ketamine is said to be the only addicting psychedelic, and tolerance builds very fast. It is said that if you do a lot of Ketamine, you will start losing bladder control. :(

Mescaline was the most dynamic and intense trip I've ever had. I have only tried this once, about 2 years ago. The trip started out by getting detail, I could see so much. (Have you ever looked at High Dynamic Range photography)? It's almost like that, but better. I got extremely nauseated at first, moments pass and I'm in a cafe with some people. I see a fly, but it is not the ordinary dark ambiguous dot quickly buzzing in and out of my peripheral vision. Instead I can identify the detail in its wings, its eye, and time slowed down to allow me this observation of detail.
But that was not the mescaline trip. That was a cute little appetizer to this 5 course hallucination feast. Moments pass and now I am sitting on a log with a few of my friends at the top of Buena Vista park on Haight street. A tall lanky hiking man sat beside us and proposed that we smoked together, collectively agreed. My observation of this man was incredible. He was sitting there, but I saw his body as a spiral pattern, I started seing everyone and everything in this spiral pattern. We began smoking. This is when I discovered the extend of the term "synergistic". What happened next was actually beyond my comfort level. I was sitting and I looked over at a large tree, being manipulated by wind. What started out as detail turned into an impossible pattern of naked swimming women's bodies. They were all connected, it was not possible to ever paint such a pattern in our version of reality. I can't believe my eyes, I look at the ground, and see thousands of lizards all connected (Oh, MC Escher, I GET IT!) all crawling, all completely real and completely dimensional. Not Possible. I look at the log I'm sitting on, thousands of snakes, thousands of bugs, connected. My body was not skin. I see a friend and her face is completely purple. It was bold, thick, almost painted on with thick purple smokey matter. And her dark eyes, and dark lips underneathe. I could see everyones face blemishes. If they had a big nose before, it was fucking HUGE. I could see everyone's true character. The ugly. I saw trolls and gremlins. I saw everyone falling into the 5:8 spiral, and linear perspective was ultra stretched. Buildings were tilting inward, everything was tilting towards this same point in the middle of my vision. Everything was tilting over. It was so bizarre, and it lasted 10 hours.

2CB: Some people compare 2CB to acid but I found the only similarity to be enhanced colors and patterns. 2CB did little for dissolving my ego but instead gave me this almost uncomfortable feeling of being in a body. I might have felt more like a soul with a coat on. I felt like i was being "told" by hallucinations that the physical journey (1 lifetime) is to serve the soul journey. I could focus on my organs, body parts. Certain areas of fatty tissue actually felt oddly separate from me. Old scars were felt. My body was telling me what it needed in a very very intimate way. Looking in the mirror was actually the most interesting "before/after" experience of my life. My face and body would go back and forth between "ideal" and "unhealthy". Given that everything is relative, I'm not sure if this is what I think, or the general truth, but it sure was helpful somehow. I couldn't figure out where I actually fell in the visual spectrum at the time. My face and body did not feel like it was my "own" at all. As if it was all borrowed.

Cocaine: For most people this is a party/social drug. This is not surprising considering the unrelenting desire to talk and make jokes. It also gives you this spot-on mental clarity. You can explain anything on cocaine with ease, using the extent of your vocabulary perfectly and organizing your words in a manner that is extremely persuasive. When you are doing an activity, it is so easy. Technical art skills increase ten fold. Drawing is fast, creative, and detailed. If you know how to play something and pick up an instrument, you'll probably be amazing. However, start doing coke a lot and you're going to have a much harder time performing anything without it.. After doing a lot of coke you might need another 8 ball to finish that awesome essay you were writing (or album you were creating, or show you're making a bunch of paintings for). This drug is extremely addictive, though I have never experienced this particular addiction and have no advise on it at this time, but I do wish people would use cocaine to create something amazing (if you should use it), because I think that is nature's intention for this tool.