Searching Within and Setting Intention for Sacred Relating

I was intent on the experience of Sacred Relationship; to know experientially what it meant to Love without condition.

I knew it conceptually, and I could almost imagine what it would feel like.... and yet it seemed to evade me every time.

I was getting better in my ability to call forth constructive circumstance for my awakening, and I’d made up my mind....
I wanted more.

Despite the seeming insurmountable and concrete proof that love hurt (and that my vulnerability would call forth all that sought to destroy it for fear of it’s power), I believed that Sacred Love was real and I was determined to find it... or rather Create it.

One of the many lessons of hurting in love brought me to know that Sacred Relationship would require me to have a strong sense of who I AM, centered in a sense of self that is grounded in truth, with a devotion to forever increasing my ability to recognize and nurture the innocence within and a commitment to seeing the innocence without.

I had arrived to a place in my life where I was comfortable being with, in and around my personal darkness, and in my search for truth, I entered ceremony with a silent and almost unconscious intention for the Shaman.....

To experience the biggest and greatest of sensual love.

That night brought an experience that is now and forever more close in heart, as I then had felt and experienced what I was looking for...

I would now be able to recognize when “this” showed up:

Like two magnets drawn together with a force that explodes
into infinite bliss... pulsing, waiting, patience drifting
into a desire so potent I dare not embrace fully for it may consume me, finding myself in your vast ocean of awareness.

A dream so vivid I can taste you;
We are holding our hearts in a lotus of light as
Creation awaits it's instruction to bring forth our intention,
a remembrance of the Truth in US.

Gratitude fills me from the depths,
over-flowering abundance of crystal clear awakening.

Who are you?

This man I will come to know
as an intricate piece of my Grand Unfoldment.
Thank-you lover, a thousand times. Thank-you.

As you rest I lay with you,
spirits laughing, dancing, spinning in and out of each other
until we no longer exist.

Nothing left to hold on to.....
a bittersweet memory of what may still come.

This was the beginning.... the beginning of a journey that initially was projected outward and has since become a very personal and intimate journey into my Self.

Cultivating how I am with me and giving myself those things that I once desired another to provide. Remembering to take my time when feeling attracted to others and knowing that my perceptions are but a Sacred reflection of my own internal process. Loving Self without condition and trusting that those who share in my desire for this will find their way to me.