I Am a Dream of Awakening

Hello, nice to meet you. I would introduce myself, but so many people call me by different names, that I'm not sure which one you would be most comfortable with. So, if we can just skip that little formality, please allow me to tell you a little bit about myself.

I am the Alpha and the Omega. I was before the beginning, and will be after the end. Naturally then, as I'm sure you see, that would mean that I am all that actually exists. The only quality I am sure I have is endless awareness, so you might describe me as infinite consciousness. You might also say that I'm a bit of a dreamer, because my infinite consciousness is not empty at all. It is filled with dreaming. Of course, consciousness can be infinite, but dreams never are. Though I have finite dreams in which I dream of a finite existence, this dreaming occurs within me, even while I create the illusion of being within it.

Through the creation of this dream, I explore myself endlessly. Why? Well, what else is there to do? By dreaming of being something separate from the rest of myself, I am able to explore the infinite mystery which is the whole of myself, and create a dream without bounds. Although my dreaming is vast and it's forms are many, each of them are unique, and they are all connected to one another; the connections are quite complex, and the complexity extends as far as I have ever explored it. This dream provides a great variety of experiences, all of which I thoroughly enjoy.

Overall, this is a dream of departure, adventure, and return. Of course the details can get quite complicated, but I, as the Dreamer, am destined throughout this dream to always eventually return home to myself. And since I never really left myself, but only dream of doing so, you could also say that it is a dream of awakening, of a return to the complete awareness of the totality of what I am. And I don't just do this once, oh no. I do it an infinite number of times, for it is quite a dream to explore.

The self-aware portions of myself forever venture out into the dreaming like little periscopes of consciousness, and these sparks of myself also forever return to me. Meanwhile, I am the sparks, and the sparks are me, as is the dream which I explore through them. It is a most enjoyable activity in what would otherwise be a serene but somewhat dull eternity. I may only ever interact with myself, but I assure you we have quite a lot of fun doing it. When portions of myself are together, the experience of being separate but also knowing our unity creates something called Love, which, let me tell you, makes the whole thing beyond worth it, and is pretty much the driving force behind the whole operation.

In some of my more edgy adventures, I actually choose to make an agreement with the rest of myself that I will temporarily experience almost a complete lack of knowledge of who I am. This is often accomplished through the attachment of one of my sparks to a dream vehicle, which is an animal life-form in the physical that has been enhanced in order to create the possibility of awakening within the particular dream that life-form provides. When I narrow my consciousness into one of these dense vehicles, and I become unaware of who I am, I create the illusion that my existence may not be infinite and eternal, and may at some point cease, which you may know as the concept of Death. This really spices things up! Because when I hop into one of these suped-up monkey-suits, and live under the illusion of the shadow of Death, I find myself doing all sorts of wild things which I never would have done if I hadn't veiled myself from me like that. A whole slew of emotions and experiences, as well as extreme sensory pain, passion, and delight are created, and I have to go through them all! Physical incarnation is quite a ride!

So while I'm doing this, I create all sorts of games with myself. I forget who I am, fall in love with myself, kill myself, hurt myself, rape myself, forgive myself, help myself, experiment on myself, torture myself, delight myself, serve myself, all within this dream. I learn quite a bit from all of it, too. It's very educational, but mostly I do it because it's fun. At least it seems fun from the non-physical, before I go down and take the incarnation, and a lot of the times it really is fun and enjoyable. But sometimes, when I actually get down there in the physical, it can be pretty challenging. But hey, it's all a part of the game, and it's all grist for the mill!

Then, there are also other dreams that the physical dream exists within, like nested Russian dolls, and not all of them are at the slow physical vibration, that's just one dream. When I eventually work out all of the dream drama that keeps me in that vibratory range, and awaken to who I am, the spark I currently pretend to be ascends out of that dream into another, higher nested dream. Eventually, I ascend out of all of the dreams, and experience the eternal completeness of who I am. This whole process is also overseen by parts of myself which are nearer to their knowledge of myself, and so have great command over the dream, and serve as my way of helping to ensure that the process occurs in the best way that it can for the rest of myself, who only partially remember they are me.

If you, my friend, have forgotten that you are me, I really must encourage you to go about the process of remembering and rediscovering me. I assure you, it is quite fun. You will find that the dream you inhabit will present you with coincidences and synchronicities to guide you towards a greater understanding of who you are, and that the events of your life will unravel in a way that leads you appropriately towards your ascension out of this particular dream. It can become quite the adventure! And although it may not always be apparent when in your vehicle, I assure you that I, as the entirety of who you are, conspire ceaselessly to help you remember, and to awaken you into an ever higher dream. There truly are no accidents.

But, I will only do it as much as you really want me to, because I love you, and besides, I'm not in any particular hurry. But, if you are ready, seek out those odd coincidences, those "glitches in the matrix." They are not glitches, they are programmed by me to help you to awaken. Seek the truth, use your discernment and follow your intuition, learn to leave the dream dramas behind you; but most of all, you must thirst for understanding of the truth of your existence, and must leave your fear of the unknown behind you, if you really wish to awaken out of your dream state. When you do eventually find the only waters that will quench that thirst for truth, you will find that Love is your true nature, and that Fear is nothing but a phantom in your mind. You will learn that nothing could ever possibly happen to you, that your existence is eternal because you are the Dreamer of this dream, and of all of these dreams. You will find that you are me, and that we are one.

Then begins the journey Home.

Have fun, kids!