Faith in times of confusion and fastly spinning evolution

We are living in amazing, frightful, intense times... All these desperate attempts to keep up a system based on secrets and power, a system which has no place in a society in which everyone should be peers, and we are all really growing into being peers, to see ourselves like peers! This is important.

And it is in the desperation of the fearful defenders of the crumbling, old reality where one can sense their downfall I think. It just takes time, and it is not long ago when we were ruled by open despotism, historically speaking. I believe that the attempts of keeping things like "they were" is going to fail miserably - time is up and human evolution is spinning faster than ever before - in all of us!
I feel this so strongly.

Faith in the world has often come easy to me, because of my basic beliefs. Faith in myself has not always been as easy to have, at least not in a short term sense. But in the long term, it has also always been there, and I think it is because of my basic attitude, the foundation of my beliefs, which I described in the fairytale which I posted here a while ago - my version of an ancient story...

But the fairytale was not enough for my mind, so I looked into science, and was utterly inspired when I found so much research pointing to the same thing - that we are conditioned to give to each other, and to cooperate instead of competing (competition can be good as long as it is to find ones speciality, or for fun, etc). It even seems like we are conditioned to be altruistic, not egoistic, and altruism is based on love... I do not talk too much about love in the essay about these findings which I am publishing soon, The theory of the Blooming Society and the Positive Multitude. Neither do mix in my spiritual perspective, because I want to reach people of all creeds, and those who have none...

Still for me, at this moment in my life, love, healing and belief in myself is just flowing down my spine, filling my whole Being. I feel as if I couldn't stop it even if I tried. It comes partly from a long journey in self development which is reaching a high point and flowing into another evolutionary spiral. But even more than that, I feel such a strong power coming from Existence itself, almost pushing itself through humanity. Its an amazing force of liberation and LOVE, and I can feel it aiming at us - seriously =)

At a moment of feeling this immense power, a particularly intense one of these moments indeed, I wrote the spontaneous post on faith awakening which you mention in your mail.* And I felt it in my whole Being. I felt pure magic in my veins, and I mean real magic - the one people see as miracles, or supernatural. It came clear to me how natural it really is...

I still feel this, and I am really performing miracles - mainly healing miracles, which I've done for a long time, but they are getting "stronger". And I can feel it growing.

Why is this happening to me? Why do I have this faith? Why have I spent my life finding ways to inspire all of us, including myself, to let out the better way of life we harbour inside of us?

I have asked that question over and over, but the answers are personal. And of course I cannot tell you, nor anyone how to find faith. I can just share mine, and hope that in doing so, I inspire my fellow Beings to open more and more to the love which is what we all are.

I think faith comes naturally with that love, and I also strongly believe, even insist upon =), that no matter how many "errors/bad things" you commit on your way in life, Existence loves and forgives you instantly.

My therapist ones told me, that feeling ashamed is arrogance, when feeling ashamed you assume you could have done differently, which under the circumstances was obviously not the case, since you acted the way you acted. This is what trauma and behaviour patterns do - they make you act in weird ways, and until you are not healed you are not "in control".

One can discuss this idea of course, but I find that in it lies a big truth - we are here to experience, to evolve -

to go from being One in Love to being One-and-Apart in Love, and that is a truly difficult task. We are amazing just being here, living this Experience, no matter what we do, or who we are.

Nevertheless - the reason why one can see that even evolution is driving us to love is basically to be seen in how we are conditioned by nature, what behaviour releases the most positive feed back in your brain. What makes you feel good is what drives your evolution, and on a long term basis, love and altruism seem to be that driving force.

More on that in the theory I mentioned above =)

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*This is the non-private part of a message of inspiration that I just wrote to a fellow evolver who asked me to tell him more how I found my inspiration to have faith. I decided to share this mail with all of you here on Evolver, hoping to spread, spread, spread inspiration in these sometimes confusing times...

I also hope to spread more inspiration with the Theory of the Blooming Society and the Positive Multitude, which I have worked on during in my spare time the last 12 years. To work with this has been, is, inspirational to say the least, but it has also been hard for me, for personal reasons, time reasons, all kinds of reasons. I am finishing it now, and for this most humbly I ask you to cross your fingers and maybe even send me a little prayer - please help me to get across that final threshold...

More inspiration in the video below - I love this video, but must say, I think it is somewhat narrow in its idea on what one can do as a "spiritual conspirator", and I do not understand why they have to say "you will not see us in the media" - well, that would count me out, and I think I'm in =)