It's all bullshit

There's so much product that is jammed down our throats every day. We need the iPhone 4, or the value meal, or the fucking paper with the heavy weight. It's all a bunch of bullshit.

My tolerance level for this life that we're living is about to reach its tipping point and I have no idea what will happen when it gets there. I just know that I really hope there's an opportunity I can seize before it gets there so that I can possibly, maybe, hopefully get out of this cycle of wants and reconnect with what I really need.

We're a bunch of hypocritical lying douchebags in this country. We sit around all day, some of us actually aware of our hypocrisy, and we relax, talk about how fucked up something is, how hot the weather is, how much we wish things were different, when we're all the problems that we're talking about. We pollute, we burn fossil fuels, we buy things we don't really need but that we've been programmed to want, and there's fucking nothing the majority of the population can do about it because we're on fucking autopilot.

Wake up. Shower. Go to work. Slave slave slave. Lunch. Slave slave slave, obey your master or you will not get your income to pay to the debt collectors. Go home. Drink alcohol and eat dinner with those you are sexually attracted to or are the product of that attraction. Watch the downloading tube. Download bullshit into brain. Sleep so bullshit can sink in. Restart.

For once I want to connect with someone on a level that doesn't involve sex, drugs, music (immediately), or 'pop' culture. I want to sit around and just enjoy being alive.

I want to discover what I was put here for. I want to quest and to connect with myself, and thusly the world around me, deeply.

We all have this incredible power to love deeply, even if its misdirected at the moment, and so many of us, not necessarily on this venue, are blind to it. Can we use force or aggression to teach them, to make them listen? It's been done to us? But it doesn't feel right. I feels like people need to be open to listening in order for the loving to truly flow.

As much as I want to kick that redneck in the nuts because he's an ignorant piece of toxins and bullshit all rolled into a humanoid form, I won't because if I do that I'm worse that he is. At least he knows who the fuck he is. At least he wakes up, puts his dip in his lip and goes to work, thinking about how much he's going to drink later that night and how much trouble he can get into because thats what he hears on the radio all day long and thats what he thinks is correct.

It's all bullshit though, everything Americans hear every day through mass media, mass entertainment, mass bullshit. They tell you what to pay attention to, and what to wear, what the weathers like. Weren't there times when people could look at the horizon and see the storms coming, or see the sun shining? Why do I need someone to sing about the joys of kegs in closets? That's the stupidest, lamest song I've ever heard.

Let's leave it at this: I thought we would have gotten somewhere after we stabbed mother earth and she bled for almost 100 days, but I guess we all need something a lot bigger than that to change our retarded ass attitudes and I hope it comes soon, because I'm fed up.

Peace.