I Have Always Been and Will Always Be Free

I am no one special. I am not smart. I was diagnosed mentally retarded when I was 13. I spent 3 years in Special Education coloring, drawing, and counting change until I dropped out of school. I don’t have any letters after my name, I haven’t attended and/or graduated from any prestigious schools, I haven’t even dropped out of any prestigious schools demonstrating my self-motivation and non-conformity. I don’t have a degree that automatically makes whatever I attach my name to an instant voice of veracity.I’ve been surrounded by S.W.A.T 3 times. I’ve played cards with serial killers and mass murderers during my 3 stays at a maximum security forensic hospital. I’ve had to go months without bathing, brushing my teeth, or shaving while in the hole in prison. Try living in and never leaving a 4×8 room for a few months. I’ve been stripped naked, handcuffed behind my back and strapped in a chair for days at a time. It’s not much fun sitting in your own excrement and urine. I’ve also been homeless, hungry and cold. Knowing this may make you into an automatic skeptic, which is fine, but it does more for me. It makes me free to say whatever I want. Why? Because I am not confined by letters after my name, a piece of paper certifying my pedigree, any school, business or institution that pays my bills to disappoint or offend, no will whatsoever to uphold my good name. I am neither obligated nor bound to carry out the will of someone else. What could be freer than that? I’ve always been free, because I’ve never been broken. I’ve never wanted to be or trade places with anyone else. I’ve been fortunate to see and experience things that most people only read about. I got to experience all of this not by hurting anyone, stealing etc, no these events all happened because I refused to do what I was told. I refuse to be a slave. My life has been quiet and tranquil the last few years. I have an overwhelming appetite for organic-foods, pushing my physical and mental limits, solitude, dwelling in the midst of nature and all that’s surreal. So those are the things I focus on. I just want to live off-the-grid and enjoy what existence has to offer.