While trancing last night

I went into a deep hypnogogic state last night before slumber where I was contemplating many different ideas. Time, existence and love. I have recently found a female that I connect with on a very spiritual level, So I thought very hard about what could manifest in this mental union. I began to imagine a "sex without sex" meditation method, where we would sit face to face, interlocked in arms and legs and passing energy to one another. I began to feel this extremely strong force of love, waves of passionate energy raining down from the heavens, permeating my very being. It was so potent and palpable that I opened my eyes from a very deep trance state. It was amazing, and it continued, more of these gusts of love energy continued to move through me. I eventually became so joyous that I wanted to sleep.

When I researched the "sex without sex" idea today I stumbled upon Karezza, which is a meditative sex that describes the EXACT position I was picturing in my head, a very strange synchronocity. Through recognition and desire of passionate and loving embrace partners can exchange sexual energy without any serious physical stimulation. This is what I wanted, and I know that it is not coincidence that I just so happened to feel that way while thinking about a method for love I had not discovered extrinisically. Being transmitted messages from my metaconscious can be sometimes frightening because I realize that my schizophrenia cycles in waves, intensifying an subsiding periodically. Though this did not feel like the normal energy I am stimulated by during a psychotic episode, it was more powerful than paranoid, more potent than subtle, more benevolent than chaotic. I for the first time felt the love of omnipotence last night, I had recieved startling mental revelations on philosophy from my metaconscious prior to this, but never an emotional revelation like this one. Learn to love without physical embrace, we can never really touch each other any way, our atoms wont allow it, so just exchange love energy, make somebody smile today.