Notes from Beyond

A collection of downloads, straight from the source, as clearly as my feeble mind can transmit them into ink. They go from my first four sentences scribbled during that inaugural mushroom trip, across to the glistening sidewalks and revelatory meaning by the sea in San Francisco, and through bouts of peace and quiet isolation in nature - all the while skittering by glimpses of transcendent glory. I took a pack of 3 X 5 index cards with me on adventures up mountain ranges in the clouds, and into endless caverns deep within. It's a wonder they have not yet burst into flames and returned to the ether. This is what they said:

I've never been so aware. I think of the present, in a very far off, distant way. I'm alive. What can I do.

Connection to others - you feel responsible for how they feel. The only way to feel is connected and be intensely interested in everyone and everything. You can't help but be a part of everything.

You're always in an altered state of consciousness. Everything is always divine and precious, you just don't see it. You're distracted. You look and see nothing because you're always thinking that it's somewhere else. Perfection is everywhere. Look at things truthfully. You're not thinking - what should I be doing right now. But nothing needs to be done. The divine is here, now. It's the pine needles stuffed in the crack of the deck, with green moss on the boards. Or the ancient metal bouncing chair, with it's blue paint and green specks underneath. I am tremendously satisfied. There is only excitement in my soul, not for the future, but exactly now.

You're walking down the street and thinking everything is sparkling and perfect, because of the scene, but walk a few more steps and see something else, but still every second of it is perfection. It's realizing your connection to everything and your being, instead of being caught up in your personal drama.

X or Y saying that DMT is dangerous or a cause for concern, is like them saying that my excursions to Zeta Reticuli , that most dangerous and forbidding place, should not be undertaken.

Expectation is based on a perception of a self that will perceive a certain way, at some point in the future. That self tends to expect that it will perceive with the same beliefs as it has. In other words, the Omega Point will be completely unexpected.

The unborn is that which exists before form, before belief, before specific expression. It is the unmanifest. The DMT world is a place slightly closer to this unborn, where objects are mere ideas, not yet birth into solid form.

All flows. The quality of time is getting so epic that as I breathe the open air and feel the magnificent experience of skiing in the open at sunset, as the clouds fly by, I can almost feel the meaning, the importance of this moment of history blowing over me. In this way mushrooms anticipate the grand power and eternal aspect of the present moment. To feel history flowing through you is a spiritual experience.

The shift is when people see the meaning the world is creating for them, intrinsic to their lives, instead of merely them creating meaning through an arbitrary goal or through a proxy personality, which they judge their lives by, whether or not they live up to their expectations. We must realize there is something higher driving our actions. For those on the path there is a divine purpose beyond words, which no materialist can begin to comprehend.

It's all of existence, tied up in one though, one cosmic giggle. You can subtly hear the joy of the universe. A subtle intelligence, focusing on, surrounding me. Never any direct message, just an experience of the immense wonder and intelligence of the universe. X seems to have denial that it means something. The DMT universe just won't sit still long enough to examine it under a microscope and ponder over the meaning while it's happening. As soon as you think to take out your microscope, it's gone. Everything comes to the still point. From there, everything is in flux. Anything is possible at higher amounts. It's how close to baseline can we get there and achieve what we want to, that is the task.

This moment is all that matters. It's all there - entire worlds are destroyed and created, this moment. It all hangs in the balance with what we do now. A choice point. Power is communication of wisdom. The best can even teach others! Compassion for those learning is embracing your own former self, its worlds and its developmental struggles and triumphs!

Letting go of attachment to any particular future (self) lets you realize that all possible futures are here, waiting, in the present moment. We break the cognitive dissonance between who we are and who we think we are or ought to be, by embracing all of our insecurities. They are ours and are no longer dissociated or "other." They are us. Where It was, there I shall be.

You are the only judge. Don't let anyone else define who you are. At the bottom, you know (who). Remember your unshakable ground of being - your eternal Self, which never dies.

You watch a car go by and think, they're out to get me, they're watching me - there's something not quite right about this world. But then you know it's perfect. Anything with this much beauty must be divine!

The sunset.
It was just a manifestation of divine energy.
It was quite simply an experience of God.
It was the world seen clearly, through a world-view that allows for consciousness and intelligence.
It was an emotional connection to God.
It was seeing the pure Self, and feeling the sacred quality of all things.