Dealing with anger.
posted by Bazooka Jules | September 2, 2009
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IcerocketWhen I was in the 5th grade I was abused by one of my teachers sexually. This went on for a whole school year. I have spent my whole life being in rage over what he took from me on so many levels. I hated that for the rest of my life I would be looking to replace what he stole from me.
Recently I discovered that maybe my anger is my strength. Maybe searching for the things this man stole from me is not a bad thing. Anger maybe is the only way I can protest and rebel. Maybe trying to find things in this world is a blessing and not a curse.
I seek a way to being grace and beauty to my anger.
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"I seek a way to being grace and beauty to my anger"
— Sep 02, 2009
It is a good path to choose
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here we are inside the dance of our creation.
"I seek a way to being grace and beauty to my anger"
— Sep 02, 2009
with such a beautiful, courageous heart how could you not succeed..."When you fix your heart on one point, then nothing is impossible for you" - Buddha
anger, friend and foe
— Nov 07, 2009
i deal with some anger issues and they run deep. some of them lifelong, going back to MY fifth year in school. (was when i began to realise the adult nature of how the world operates, who controled it, why things happen, personal experiences in a small town that terrorised my family)
now so many years later, anger is still an issue and in the last three to five years has been both friend and foe. like allowing the mystery, allowing the anger without placing definitions, excuses, or giving it a permanent home, i can see that anger is just one of the many ways our shadow self expresses what is deeper than the ego self is ready willing or able to manage.
i decided to permit those feelings to surface, give them voice, but not power, and i decided to NOT permit myself to identify with the anger. i do NOT embrace the anger, while i DO work very hard at learning its lessons. like our dreaming, anger is real, but it is not the center of the universe. it is merely one aspect of the many things we deal with. when it comes to REAL and DEEP issues of anger, the same applys, it is just the amount of work required, the amount of release and process required to temper those angers, and integrate the lessons.
i find, over and over, that when i refuse to define my being as a being of anger, the issues are then able to surface for process, without becoming 'imaginary FRIENDS', that i convince myself deserve to be.
they are. that is all i know for sure. they exist. but i dont have to let them steer the ship of my life. in the last months since finding the healers circle, i find that im learning that rather than me dealing with my anger, i can let my angers deal with me. this perspective puts ME in the drivers seat.
identify the angers, dig for the higher meanings, and trade the rage for the lesson.
be well,
xotaoe
Taoe of Philly
PhillyReikiMaster@hotmail.com
gentle
— Nov 07, 2009
ask your dreams for understanding. it will come.
i also ask that i process anger IN my dreams.
our dreams can do miracle work to move us thru our psychological pain,
shamans mastered this art eons ago. we forget.
ask your dreams to show you reminders.
ask your inner shaman to take you on a journey in your dreams, and wether you ask to recall those dreams is up to you. let the inner shaman, guides, whatever is in your belief system.... let them come to your aid, and you may be pleasantly surprised just how much you will change in a very short time.
rage like all emotions is built into our species. it has a purpose or it wouldnt be so. allow the purpose to come to you. act on that. invite the rage to tell you what it has visited you to tell you. extract the meaning, and from that the lesson. again, trade the lesson for the pain.
there are many many helper spirits out there, and absent them, your own best true self is in there somewhere waiting for you.
race not to the answers... race to experience the process. sit with your rage, know it, befriend it or not, but know, even then, friends do not live with us 24/7 without agreeing to some of OUR rules!
im reading a book now called RECLAIMING THE SHADOW SELF
cristine breese.
EXCELLENT!
XOTAOE
Taoe of Philly
PhillyReikiMaster@hotmail.com
Soul...
— Nov 07, 2009
You may not like this response Jules. Have you ever considered that your soul yearned for this experience. In fact you placed yourself in this environ just for the opportunity to receive this gift. I know this may seem banal, however, your soul needed this episode for it's development. Do not grasp anger, it only will serve the ego and thus cause further pain and maya. The world does not spin on chance, all experience is synchronous. Instead of asking why he did what he did, consider asking what was the lesson your soul wanted to learn. Only when we can identify tragedy as a syncronicity lesson can we truly free ourselves from the energy which brought forth the event.
Namaste, my sister Jules, I offer this response with love and respect to your soul.
