First time poster, Long time dreamer

In my youth I felt much of the chaos.. the knowing without knowing how I knew it, when the world around me was saying it was something else, yet in a thinning veil I could see so much farther than I was told was possible.. so many questions did I have.. I had the dream thing too.. learned to ride a bike in my dream time, got up and rode the bike just like that.. then with steady determination I made my way to the place where I did a whole bunch of dream exercises so that I could travel into the dream realm with full consciuosness.. just because I wanted to find again the one who taught me how to ride the bike.. and while there I discovered that we dream everything in advance, and we agree that this is the journey we will take, or we say we dont want to take it, and go another direction.. there are really no surprises..

I've been in vision since I was 12.. passed through many questions.. answers come in time... at the age of 12 I was staring into the face of a flower and found myself staring into the face of the most beautiful Indian woman whos arms were raised in joyous exaltation towards the setting sun (pictured next to my name) what a journey she took me on.. all the time I wondered why me? what, amongst all this chaos, could be so special about me... youth was very chaotic, with those lightning bolts coming out of peoples heads, and fists coming out of their stomach and hitting me, hitting other people.. I felt beat up most of the time.. I asked a lot of questions too.. took me years to travel through the chaos...

eventually I discoved life was a circle.. but when the circle becomes complete it is a spiral because we are more at the end than we were in the beginning....

some of the things I learned was that I was a light worker.. on a mission of love... I incarnated with my tool belt on.. In my youth it felt heavy, like a burden, but when I grew into it (within the last 6 years) I realized how smart I was to have it with me.. and understood why I incarnated with so many "gifts" of site.. I also had memories of my home world in my youth that have become enhanced with the passage of time.. many memories from my youth have become enhance with time..

the picture of my avatar.. is the one in my vision from my youth.... she was my mother 13 generations ago... It was in that life that I volunteered to come back in at this time (amongst the chaos of my people) and agreed to work to reopen the path for them... the discoverey that she was my mother, well then I knew the feel of the circle.. and the circle became the spiral for me.. in 2004

well that is my little summary of traveling through the chaos..... from the unknown to the known, just honor it and hold it sacred... and it will return its gift to you.... in time... (is my advice)

books with dream exercizes (tis an awesome path to take)

I wish you well upon your journey, and look forward to hearing your dreams. I have dreams I recorded in the 80's that began to manifest in the 2000's... the dream journal is an awesome way to realize just how far we can see into the future..

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here we are inside the dance of our creation.

But like Joanne and others have said. It's your journey. All you have to do is ask and all the answers will make their way to you in one way or another. You seem to be open to alternative knowledge anyway.
Who are we? We are multidimensional beings, we are and always will be. We have come here to experience this wonderful world full of diversity and contrast, to be challenged and to aid in the great expansion of consciousness.
Why are you like this? Because you are tuned in and gifted. You only have to hone your gifts and pick and choose what info you want to come through. Just takes a little practice and the intention to do so. You are normal, we have been programed out of our powers by frightened, uptight, narrow minded, shortsighted controllers who want everyone to be the same. Where is the freedom in that?
Of course, some dreams are more clear than reality, learn from them. continue to write them down.
Drinking can relax you amd let information come through but I wouldn't recomend drinking too much, it's a hard drug to have a good relationship with. Other drugs are more friendly but don't blast yourself out of existance with them, use them as a sacrament, work with them, let them bestow their grace upon you. You are way ahead of most people who won't even consider the idea that these gifts are normal. As GodIAm said we are waking up and these powers will become the norm very soon.
Much Love and Peace on your Journey.

I am not afraid of tomorrow for I have seen yesterday and I love today.