Terrance McKenna and Alan Watts are big influences. I find the practicality, the no-BS attitude they take toward philosophy and, consequently, human experience to be inspiring and I try to follow their example. I believe that the universal totality hides nothing from us--that our perceptual abilities are inherently narrow and that our enculturation into human civilization further narrows how we use those perceptual tools. As a result, we hide the universe from ourselves.
Gender also plays a significant role in human discovery of the totality--our physiological/biological creative capacities inform the deepest segments of our beings, and the womb and the penis impress upon bodies different senses of relating to the whole. I'm well aware of the male perspective; I want to find a way to engage the feminine further. I want to have a fuller, richer awareness.
Undoubtedly, human civilization is under extraordinary strain, and our species has placed unparalleled disruptive pressures on the planet we share. Time is undoubtedly short--not only to save our world, but to discover, at last, ourselves and our place in the universal totality.
My position in finance may undermine my credibility to some. I feel like I'm on the front line of something profound and I know that it is a deeply disturbing profundity. I see something coming through it, though. Finance is the key avatar of this unsustainable paradigm, and as its illusory engine sputters while the behemoth draws nearer to its doom, I see the potential for something wholly new to rise in its ashes. I'm in finance to understand through economics--human exchanges transcendent of interest rates and derivatives--what's happened and what might happen next.