seeking clarity from a murky past,feeling like i am doomed to always be the outcast...
it hurts soo bad to breathe in the lies,I despise...

understanding the truth within me in something I cannot share...
I searched so far within,I had no Idea what was in there

Now I define my struggle,my victory in this reality...by the way I let myself be...

the truth has set me free...

and that we are forever here,the one reality that has me locked in your strong arms.
I want to ignore all the hurt,the pain...the daggers that have pierced my heart that came from your sturdy hands.
I want to break down the lies,the stories.give you a play by play commentary on each tear that escaped my hazel eyes...

waking up to a whole new world,a new way to open my eyes.
I am walking out of the dream,I am walking beyond the nightmare...
I am breathing in the toxicity of my world...I am cleansing it with my spirit...and transmuting the negative vibrations into some thing lighter,to help all sentient beings in all dimensions...

Many moments of once forgotten suicide bring me to get down on my knees ...no longer enjoying the ride...no longer sailing in the breeze...
we have shared victories and defeats...we had flown high while still sitting in our seats...

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These last couple of years have been quite the roller coaster for me.i have been homeless,found out i was pregnant...I have had a son,named Siddhartha, got divorced from my cheating, abusive husband ...moved from Oregon, to California, to Alaska ...then back down to California ...I met my soul mate...turns out I have known him since the summer before sophomore year in high school. ..

I am someone different to many different people.I always let others play the sympathy card,but try to let them see the two way street they trod...