Another year without christmas

This year will be my 3rd without christmas.
I have to admit that it was originally because we were broke, too many bills and not enough money.
I still felt good to give it up. I feel like christmas is only a commercial these days. Being broke was a great excuse. Though my true motive was wanting to be in line with the original 'reason for the season'. The winter solstice, an astronomical event, a moment in the cycle that made many rejoice knowing that the days will begin to get longer.
It is only November and already "They" are telling us to show how much you love your friends and family by spending all your hard earned money on things nobody needs. Consume, consume, consume. I do not like the image that brings to mind, a ravenous monster without a mind.
We are living on a 1/4 of what we were making only a year ago. I wonder where all the money went?
I still have to deal with family and friends that are zombie shoppers and think how could I possibly deny my beautiful loving child of christmas?
Well, the same way I did not take him trick or treating, even though Halloween was always my favorite holiday. Now all I see it as is a commercial to sell candy and useless decorations to sit in the closet for 11 months out of the year, (Of these I have plenty).On Halloween night my 2 1/2 year old son wore his favorite dragon costume and passed out candy at the neighbors house. This was the first year I did not buy candy and hand it out. I know now that Halloween was originally a time to honor those that have come before us. Our ancestors and friends and family that have passed away from this world, it should be a time of quite reflection, not begging candy from the neighbors and throwing half of it away because you don't like that kind...blah blah blah...
I am so sick of commercials. I was bummed at fist but now when I say that my living room TV Rests in Peace. I say it with a smile. "You have a TV in garage, you can bring that inside to your living room". NO thanks, i am actually Living while I am in my living room. Dancing with my son and playing games, coloring with crayons and making up new games. Oh, yeah and spending much more time outside exploring and getting really dirty.

I feel alone even though I know there are many who feel the same way I do. I just don't know any of them personally. I do my best to set an example, though it can be very difficult at times. The pressure from those around me and the conditioning that I have suffered along with everyone else make it hard to make a clean break. I always knew I did not fit into the mainstream.

Over the waterfall I go into the unknown.

May all be well in our world.
T