20in10tion ≈ 20at10tion

A Year in Preview:

On 01.1.10, I was blessed to join 32 Angelinos in a group intention setting Moon Night Hike to the summit of Mount Hollywood. Sometime after seven, we ventured up the mountain, lead by the Goddess Projectionist Midori Takata, co-founder of Project Butterfly in Los Angeles and mystic edge dancer, who proceeded to guide us in a meditative reflection on the year past and a retrospective imagining of the year to come. As the circle opened we began a silent trek to the zenith point, where we would set our intentions with the Greater Los Angeles Basin as our backdrop. There silently or in ritual, we focused our attention, above the noise, above the neon distractions, (yet not above the smog) on our intention for the coming year. We then came together in a circle, praising the moon, ourselves, the sun, our planet and our sense of humor. D. Miller, culture jammer, author of Visionary subTEXT :: VST and Co-founder of Project Butterfly in his wordsmith manner, reminded us that this is the year of “20-in10-tion, & 20-at10-tion™®*”

Not only did the 33 of us, via Midori, plant a tree of intention and life in the Hills of imagination land, but a seed of purpose was shoveled into my brain, when D pointedly laid it all out, so simply, yet quite deep on so many levels-numerically, lyrically, and timelinessly. And I being the cleaver memetic junkie/thief, I loved that notion and had to share it with you people. Despite the fact that blogging scares me. :/

Get comfy.

Have you set you intention yet for this New Everything Year of 2010?
Y/N/M/?

Are you prepared to focus your attention on your desired goals in 2010?
Y/N/M?

If the answer is yes, no, or maybe so, your in luck, because you did exactly what you're supposed to do – exactly what you did. So keep it up. This year is not about becoming the person you should be, or changing this or that, or any other convoluted introspective masturbation. Instead it could be about accepting who you are, and setting a crystal clear intention and using your attention to focus/manifest that intention. In my less then humble opinion, of course, we could go this route.

If you use your attention to focus on what you desire, what you’re doing, or what is coming through to you (intuition/gut check), you'll be sharpening that skill of willful wielding of your consciousness. There is no time to fix or alter or anything like that, you are what you are, now just close your eyes, and find out where/what the heaven your suppose to be doing.

Go!

Wait, let me beat you over the head a little more first. Thanks.

Despite what you may think, or have, psychologically, karmically, or energetically left to clear, before you move forward on your path, try and accept the notion that, none of that baggage matters anymore. Like for real and stuff. Think about it. Wait don’t think about it, otherwise you’ll find the contradictions in my words. Instead read on.

Question: So if life's baggage doesn’t matter, than what matters?

Answer: Whatever your doing now?

Your reading this, reluctantly at this point ok, but for some reason. Curiosity I assume, not because my profile picture got you all hot and bothered, (if however that is the case - send a personal message, with photos) you’re here, because, your here.

So first things first if that is the case, then lets go as far as to say, we should trust that that non-local part of you/us, knows “wassup” and whats best for little ol' you and then move forward. Granted you may have shadow work left to do. You may have emotional blocks from some unfortunate childhood drama experienced, or you may just feel a cloud of despair lingering from the Collective Colonial Consciousness induced state of PTSD, resulting from the native genocides, an economy built on slavery, injustice, environmental assault, blue collar crime, or lets be honest you may just be an asshole. (Guilty)

But you know what, maybe it doesn't matter. I mean if your an asshole, use your intention to shift your attitude, use your attention to stay present and stop being such a doo-doo head. You may be like a friend of mine who looks a lot like me; but has better hair, he has this problem of always feeling sorry for himself, “waaa,” a phenomena we we cat owners refer to as "sadface/kittenface." Granted it is hard being a handsome white male in this day and age, no matter, because whatever my friend is experiencing is debilitating. What Apple computer owners refer to as, the spinning beach-ball of death, or conscious buffering. Your brain is just processing so much stimuli, it gravitates towards simple ideas like – “I suck, nobody loves me, why can't I get laid,” to keep the mind from freezing and seizing up. I’ll go as far as to say, our most charged emotions are generally the negative ones, "why the fuc% did I say that? I can’t do it. Why do I keep lying about stupid shit?" So our brain, and even our field, can easily capture thoughts of self deprecation, anxiety, or depression. Our challenge is to not shift to the positive, “I’m the king of the world, I’m so spiritual,” (gag) these diluted ideas of positiviness, are just as unhealthy as cognitive disorders are. Shift to the now, what’s ahead of you, your intention, your heartbeat, then you’ll be smooth sailing. Don’t believe me. Good. You shouldn’t.

During the last renaissance, everyone for the most part, would visit a divination practitioner of sorts, to help with decisions and such. Nowadays almost all of us have gone to psychiatrist, or we’re or been on meds to even out a chemical imbalance, or we read self-help books, to figure out WTF is happiness and how can I get a loan so I can purchase it. In our society it’s all about the brain, the personality, (damn you Scientology/CIA) or some vicarious cathartic experience from watching Oprah or some eschanton porn movie like the 2012.

So if your feeling down, lost, confused, frustrated, even elated on occasion, you could be going through an involuntarily kundalini release, vis-à-vis what is contemporary referred to as bi-polar episode. ( See the work of Sean Blackwell at, BipolarORWakingUP, if you or someone you know is experiencing this.) Or you could just be plain fucked up, because our personal freedom is being demolished, our culture of planned obsolesce is taxing our energy, the spiritual bankruptcy of our current paradigm is just lame, and the plight of the people of the world to drink and feed themselves is made trivial by our western wasteful mentality. Don’t beat yourself up, if your not confused or angry, then you’re most likely not human, or your drinking the really good Kool-Aid. One way or another, don’t get bent outta shape, if you don’t start loving yourself, forget ever loving someone else or doing anything meaningful, because it will be rendered insignificant if you don’t love thyself.

As a civilization, I'm afraid to tell you, we screwed the pouch, and collective bestiality is frowned upon in this galaxy. I was in Detroit, what was formerly Detroit that is, for the Wholiday season, and boy was that a course in miracles. The kind that leave a city desolate and hopeless. Terrorist lighting their gonads on fire to celebrate baby Mithras birth-day, was only the beginning of my ChristconsciousnessMass day. Besides seeing the magic, the history and the opportunity in collapse with The Heidelberg Project and the Diego Rivera mural at the D.I.A., visiting abandoned skyscrapers, and all around despair and misery, was how I spent my vacation. The American nightmare created Detroit, the American dream manipulated Detroit, and I’d wager, if I was a betting man, it'll take an American vision quest to revitalize Detroit. You may not see what Detroit has to do with intention and attention, well neither did the corporations and corrupt politicians who allowed a city to go to waste. That my community, wasn’t even the beginning of the Downfall of this Stolen nation, it is however indicative of where we’re at. We are left to fend for ourselves in this society, and so be it, we needed to get back to our roots, misery and depression only remind us of how we can fail ourselves when not being aware or having intent. Incidentally, there is a huge community of social artist’s, activists, community builders, urban gardeners, and magick folk, and the citizens of Detroit, keeping the fire burning. You needn't worry.

All that you feel is wrong with you, or underdeveloped, or those pesky things you wish to let go of, just let go of them already and when they pop up in your mind, forgive and transmute. Wield your attention, with your intention for the year, and cut through your noise and the worlds noise. Only hear the music, of the swishing blade of power that is your awareness. This verse from "The Grudge" by Tool might offer an additional alchemical insight.

“Give away the stone. Let the oceans take and
Transmutate this cold and fated anchor.
Give away the stone. Let the waters kiss and
Transmutate these leaden grudges into gold.
Let go.”

If your still gonna feel alone or lost, despite the ramblings of my person, let me tell you - your both lost and alone, so stop fretting and smack your self before you pine away. Otherwise I’ll smack you, and you might like it. Seriously, this is the month of "Give it up" here at Evolver.net. Give it up that you need answers, or to improve. Give it up that you'll be better if you do yoga every day, or if you read this new book, or if your waiting for full disclosure, or for your father to accept you, or if you just want friends (guilty), because check it out, none of that shite is gonna happen, I'm afraid to tell you. Self-improvement, soul searching, sacrificing of the desires was so last decade. Your stuck with who you are, no matter how many layers you peel back, how many organisms you manage to self-cultivate, or how much pot you don't smoke anymore.

Just embrace who you were born as, who you find yourself as now, and move forward. Set an intention that if you achieve, even your old stubborn ass will have to acknowledge in bewilderment. Then use your attention to focus on that intention. Teleport yourself to 2011, Jan 1, and send back info to yourself of how you got there, and where did you get that great dress, or shoes if your a women. That was the meditation Midori lead the collective on as we ascended Mount Hollywood, and it was exactly what we should all be doing. Look forward by being in the present, the past is dope for sure don’t get me wrong, but you’ve sooo been there before, let it go playa. You don’t have to have some epiphany, or be able to produce a profound visualization, your brain isn't Pixar, so give it a rest. Remember instead how much negativity you brought into your life just thinking about it and naming it, over and over again (guilty again). That was manifest misery and it worked wonders, and we could gauge that we would get the same results if we only could say nice things about ourselves. As finding nice things about ourselves can be challenging, do as we do in Hollywood, “fake it till you make it.” You'll slip up, lose focus, stare at some hot guys buttocks in some locally made hemp cords, or your splurge and eat dead animal, eventhough your teeth are obviously not designed to eat meat, or you might have too much to drink and sleep with me. But all that’s ok, because it’ll just remind you that your attention has drifted, and then ‘bang,’ your aware of it, you take a comfortably deep breath, and look straight ahead with the confidence, that at least you can still breath without fucking that up.

Like meditation gurus will say or sell; in meditation, first you get bored, then you think about all the shit you have to do, or have avoided doing, and or who you wanna lay - at those stages most people struggle and give up on the meditation. But as any one who has been practicing mediation for many years will say. When you come out of the trance, so what, go back in, and strengthen those muscles. Snap out, snap back in, how ever many times it takes. The same goes this year with your attention. Work that muscle.

That being said, I'll be the first to say your fucked up. We all are, I wish we could go back and kick ourselves in the lovely ass we have, but we can't, (we can in individual and collective Soul Retrieval and other spirit-psycho modalities, but more on that next month) at least not until the time machine craze of 20dirty (2030).

So since we dropped the ball in terms of self-actualization or reaching some state of shamanic mastery, the next thing to do is kick that fucking ball laying at our toes, like some half naked Mayan Twin brothers, without all the homosexual connotations this time. As the ball goes flying into the air, we again are reminded that we are on the right 2010 path, otherwise no one would have passed us the ball in the first place. Our attention was the swift kick, and the intention was to remove the ball from in front of us. It’s that easy. Right?

As contemporary psychology tells us about dreaming, and depression - the two sided coin most of your bloggers out there are flipping for divination purposes, as you sleep, successively, and generally speaking, you get into deeper, and longer REM states. That’s why when you wake you can remember your last dreams (if that is, you stopped smoking pot after you read the RS post on the green cannabis elves), because it was the longest period of REM state, and thus you spent the longest time in that dreamworld. But if your feeling like poo-poo pancakes upon awakening and you pull the covers over your self and curl up in the fetal position entering the womb of reverse growth, you'll quickly jump back into the REM state. And the REM state for some reason uses up serotonin levels, like alcohol at a family holiday, and when you wake you feel washed-out, even though your dream may have been easier to handle then reality, you have just started your day, depleted and ready for a full on anxiety attack. Congratulations.

"Do what thou wilt," shall now be reappropriated, as "do what thou is frakken supposed to be doing" - working for the greater good of the organism formerly known as humanity, now referred to with expletives. Whether you know it or not, you all work for the planetary organism, ok, is that settled? So you all have work to do, a mission your either well aware of, or have been avoiding, one that will be made abundantly clear once you tell the universe what your heart desires this new everything: year/decade/paradigm.

The practice makes purpose.

Wield that attention, because without spoiling the fun or the wonder of the mystery that is life I have to tell you. Your consciousness, something everyone is all in a fuse about these days, well, it’s your attention and your intention combined. Granted its more than that, but if your reading the internet for ideas about "who you are" and not going out in nature, bearing the wild naked and afraid, or drinking sacraments on a regular basis, than honey, your a long way away form finding the answer. The answer may be on the web, most likely even on Reality Sandwich or Evolver, but (y)our little consciousness' can't handle the truth, because that would make the truth external - the fact that you’re here, right now, holding on, that’s’ pure unadulterated t.r.u.t.h.

The truth is the flesh. Look at your skin. You may be miserable and contemplating suicide, or just physically ill, or depressed or gorgeous and just fucking stupid - so? I'll venture to say, S.F.W., your alive asshole! Now what are you gonna do about it?

In closing, lest I forget why I was able to rant right now, I must recognize the presence of Daniel Pinchbeck in this whole thingy we call reality. I met Daniel at something called Burning Man in '05, (Google it, they're a few images out there) and he told me he was about to launch Metazine, an online journal, which subsequently became Reality Sandwich, which is Evolver.net’s big sis (love ya). I submitted an article to Metazine about how our attention is our consciousness. They didn’t respond, and if you’ve read this post thus far, you probably don’t have to image why. No matter, here I am blogging, where no bad grammar, spelling or wack syntax can stop me from vomiting up ideas, and vibrating out letters, words and idea’s. My attention is on this message; my intention is on sharing, gathering and living transformation stories. In his book 2012: The Return of Quetzalcoatl (I don’t know if I’m pronouncing that right) he basically did all the work for us. But in particular, when at some point discussing Revelations or the Bible, which even if anything Christian gives you the 'heebee geebees' let me say, as many have spoken before me, the Bible is still the greatest magical book ever produced, after Alan Moore’s Promethea that is. Anyway. When discussing this crazy guy C.G. Jung, Daniel writes, “[H]e saw the Bible as a document describing the evolution of the western psyche, moving in stumbling stages and violent lurches, toward an ultimate reconciliation, an integration of ego and self.”

The ego (goddess rest its soul) referring to, the "I", or one's conscious experience of oneself, was very helpful thus far in our evolution. But what if we swap out the idea of thinking about our ego, and instead think about our attention. No judgment, no differentiation, just what is – “what the hell are you focusing on?” Because that’s who/what you are. Energy flows were attetnion goes, the Huna would say. Attention allows us to forget biases, because we know thoughts come from all over the noosphere, so we can’t be in control of them all necessarily, some are so deep we’ll either be on meds for the rest of our life or damn broke from all the books we bought, and lectures and seminars we’ve attended

Now the self, the real red headed stepchild of reality, commonly referred as “human motivation, cognition, affect, and social identity,” is totally in need of some updated firmware. I suggest we download, depending on what cognitive operating system your bio-chemo-electric-magnetic field is running, the intention that your soul is waiting for you to accept. Release the self, because so many of us our going through, the oh so annoying identity crisis “what book, group, drug, clothing, festival defines me?” Ahhhhh, none of them do, you silly human. Your intention, what your heart tells you is possible as Charles Eisenstein would put it, and what your passions, and your intuitive gifts clearly illustrates about who you are, is oddly enough, who-you-are. All that leads pretty clearly, if you don’t over think it, to the authenticity that is your intention.

If we are the ones we’ve been waiting for, we surely didn’t travel to earth unprepared. Maybe unconscious, but not without a purpose and some tricks up our corpus callosum/ axis mundi. Your not on Evolver.net right now for shits and giggles, well except ya’ll in NYC, you’re here because, like some Manchurian Candidate scenario, we’ve been triggered, activated, programmed for lack there of, to recognize the symbols and signs, and then abandon the ideas of separation/representation, objective/subject, and just BE HERE NOW (Great name for a Book FYI). So trust that if you listen to your heart, and yes I don’t mean anything more esoteric or new agey then listening to that ticking thumping pulse of energy 130 beats per minute, you feel just under the skin. Your heart can tell you yes or know, just like Biokinesiology or geomancy, instead you can practice heartmancy, ‘cause cous’ that’s all we really need right now. And lucky for you, we all got a heart installed at birth, so you can stop spending money, unless you need heart medication that is.

Ok Ambiguity aside, I'll venture to say that the grey areas are disappearing into the singularity that is reality right now (re:2012). All that’s left, finally, is the black and white and you, the human /observer, equipped with all the technology you need to be your true self, connected, present and sexy – the true trinity. Not good or bad, but focused or unfocused. Your either drifting or swimming, you can’t do both. You are either human or you’re inhuman. Furthermore, unless you’re in a Rembrandt painting, a human being is unable to hold two contradictory emotions at the same time. I don’t remember where I read that, but it’s so true. If your in a state of fear or anger, see the video below, and see how quickly the poles shift.

What are you?

The red and white our bodies produce, is our secreted god juice. Those life fluids, kept inside or smeared across our third eye, allow us to become the warriors of love, the mercenaries of peace.

We have become the last tribe.

To conclude, Daniel in 2012:TRQ, helps illustrate the notion that we don’t have to fix ourselves anymore, we’re crazy or whatever for good reason, we needn’t question nature anymore.

“God, as a psychic fact, reveals himself in our neuroses, our allergies, our failed love affairs.” “God enters through the wound, [Jung] wrote.”

Standing at the edge, after crawling through the wound of existence, go ahead and stare duality in the face, and laugh. Because we know a secret. It’s all in our head. Our head. Meaning, you guessed it, we are in charge.

Not only can we learn from the magical mastery of Daniels synthesis of some of the most profound contemporary and archaic ideas, we can learn from him the power of intention. At one point in 2012:TRQ, this appears, “ There are efforts to use the Internet to develop social networks supporting sustainable development.” This passage published in 2006, became a reality with Evolver.net, this past year, and like so many of you, Daniel Pinchbecks attentiveness to his intention to create what was needed, lacking, or whatever it was, not only came true for him, furthering increasing his psychic strength, it also benefited us, and spaceship earth. HooRAY!

So when you doubt your intentions, remember that they are bigger than your ego, your “me,” they are here for the benefit of all sentient beings and it’s your responsibility to heed your inner intention, with your focused and continuously sharpened attention.

Ok, so maybe some improvements could be made, like with your diet, or your consumerism tendencies, or your lacking of a sense of humor. I’m not being dogmatic about moving forward and being present, all’s I’m offering is a swift kick in the balls. Stop worrying, stop negating your power, stop stopping. You know what to do, do it. In 2012:TRQ, Mr. Pinchbeck further supports this notion, possibly unintentional.

“By reestablishing harmony, we would realize, in Black Elk’s words, “every place is the center of the world.” [ See Nassim Haramein for more on that] Or, as Robert Lawlor defined the aboriginal perspective, “There is no part of this existence that needs to be transcended, repressed, or gone beyond.”

Fuck enlightenment or higher consciousness, just be you dude, there's no state you need to achieve other than the state of emerge-and-see. So there you have it, your exactly where you’re suppose to be. Therefore set you intention daily, and use your attention every second of every day, and you’ll be glad they put a net under the Golden Gate Bridge, because your alive, and that’s all she wrote.

“I don't believe anything I write or say. I regard belief as a form of brain damage, the death of intelligence, the fracture of creativity, the atrophy of imagination. I have opinions but no Belief System (B.S.)”

--- Robert Anton Wilson

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