Can anyone help me drive this one home?
posted by scottguider | July 24, 2010
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IcerocketAs a child, my interests in things occult developed independent of my interests in ufos and aliens, but as an adult, I have found these subjects converge via conspiracy theories and spirituality. I have seen enough, read enough, watched enough and thought enough to get the feeling that there is definitely someone controlling every aspect of our lives. I have also seen enough, read enough, watched enough and thought enough on the subject to be totally convinced that on some level our world is nothing more than illusions created by ourselves. I have stumbled over the interference patterns created by these two distinct points of view and, though I cannot find steady ground I think that I have discovered something very simple and something that has always beat me in life. I think that I have discovered "Self Discipline".
I discovered a book called "Self discipline in 10 days" and found it hard for me to read the first few pages. I kept reading and rereading slowly till I finally got to the main part of the book... the "Exercises", where I completely stopped reading it. I know that the things contained within are going to be very hard to take. I have done this my whole life as it turns out. Procrastinating. Thinking of excuses why not to do something. Beating myself up with "Funny" comments. The list goes on. Well, how does this all relate? Well, I have found that my lack self discipline has perhaps been the reason that I was always looking for truth. Looking for reasons to NOT go to college. Looking for reasons to NOT diet. Looking for reasons why I am perfect the way I am. Looking for reasons why I should be appreciated for the special person I am. Looking for reasons why I deserve better than everyone else. Looking for reasons why I should be given the benefit of the doubt. Excuses. I have found that as I have applied the small amount of knowledge that I have gotten from the book, I have felt better, started REALLY performing well at work, completed many other small goals around the house and have had a generally good feeling and sense of well being lately. I am not here to push someone's book. I just happened to come across this one. I would be willing to bet that most books about self discipline say the same things in different ways. I just feel that maybe all of these things tie in with the "victim mentality".
I de-pitted like 10 dates the other day and, upon de-pitting them, I immediately grabbed the seeds and thought to myself "hmm... I could grow these and start a date palm farm and live off of that money. I could quit my job." Immediately I went looking for a way to get out of work. Like I think I don't have to work or something. Like I am entitled to just make money for being the amazing unique individual I am. I got really irritated with myself and threw the seeds away. I am not a hoarder, but I think I have tendencies to do so. Clinging to the past when my childhood was easy and worry free. Saving things so that they will increase in value. Wanting to get rich quick. Oh well...
I can't help but notice the beautiful blue sky dotted by the so-called contrails, and I can't help but notice freemasonry imagery on television and in movies. I have started toying around with the idea that a lot of these things are just illusions thrown into our reality to make it interesting, but if you dig into the illusions, they grow and struggle to appear more real, but delving into them is like digging a bottomless pit. Does anyone else feel that these "signs" are really just our subconscious thoughts projected into the universe and made manifest on the outskirts of reality and outside of most people's perception and awareness?
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No, this thing just goes round and round...
— Jul 24, 2010
Are you familiar with synchro-mysticism? I'd be reluctant to say everything which could be seen as a sign is a subconscious projection. The people en mass do seem to suffer the inability to govern themselves on a psychic level. This would appear to give rise to government and those who would seek this out. Do they all know what they're doing? Can a conspiracy be this pervasive?
Do intentional acts ever reap unintentional consequence? If so then could not all of this be merely the unintentional result of a single act of long ago? If so is then the only thing that can keep this from being intentional is the enormity?
Why the guilt about money? Money itself is an artificial replacement for actual resources so why should you or anyone else not have equal access to the earths resources?
I think there is some kind of scarcity/abundance thing going on here. You could have grown dates and just grown dates. Do we need to be financially motivated to do anything of value? So would have happened had those seeds turned out to yield an abundance of dates? Would you just throw those away too?
Isn't this what money boils down to? Because we perceive it as scarce we perceive it as valuable. If we have scarcity in our lives one may have the potential to horde. Since we have scarcity in our lives could this be relational to the scarcity in our hearts? If there were no reason to horde would we? We know the money is not real, it has no intrinsic value. If we horde fiat currency what happens? It depreciates, looses it's purchasing power, limiting and depleting resources since the whole system is dependent on our participation and consumption. But what are we consuming?
Of course one must submit to labor to acquire this money which is actually debt and being debt you can never use it to really own anything as the money as debt is merely a promise to pay, someday. Quite peculiar...
...and if you hold on to it we know what happens. So the only way to get your "value" is to spend it as soon as you get it so that the next person can access the benefits of the very same resource. Unless you have it and can get lots of it you can't really send it back around so this circle can never complete.
"Seek not abroad, turn back into thyself, for in the inner man dwells the truth..."
a couple of suggestions...
— Jul 25, 2010
the first would be to offer for your consideration that what you mean by the term 'self-discipline' is an intellectual construct based on a dualistic perception of our world. That is, the idea that competition is a necessary and undeniable corollary of evolution, helpful in all ways, and is the best way to 'grow' in our world. Further, dualism will reinforce everything that supports our current economic, political and social systems - all of the above reinforce the concepts of separation and scarcity in life. (As a side note - it will also cause people to believe in the necessity of hoarding.)
The second suggestion I can offer you as an alternative to these perspectives is to investigate the concept of spiritual impeccability. In a few words, this idea is the idea to live according to those ideas and concepts that reinforce 'you' as a sovereign individual, an inherent vital aspect of life, living an individuated experience as part of a larger whole.
If you can ground your understanding of the second suggestion you will resolve all of the difficulties and conundrums you have been encountering in your life. For instance, a reason you resent 'having' to work is not necessarily because you are lazy, but because it would only reinforce the current paradigm we all share. As the current paradigm is obviously flawed, you struggle internally, often unconsciously or subconsciously, with submitting to its dictates. This paradigm is one designed to dis-empower you, to create a dependence in your mind on the larger system that feeds upon all of us. The explanation and definitions you used in the second paragraph describing your life and feelings within your life, are based on this system of thought that has been enslaving with growing efficiency the mass of humanity.
What I am basically offering for your consideration is that what you find confusing is using dualistic concepts to understand a universe that is in actuality functioning energetically from a perspective of wholeness. If you feel you are whole and complete unto yourself, you do not need 'the system' ... And so, meaning is obfuscated, to prevent this unified understanding of our world, our experience as individual humans as well as to hide what is right under our noses.
We ARE being fed illusions while being told it is reality.
In these circumstances, confusion is inevitable. Personal impeccability, that is owning one's experience and one's own understanding of that experience and being true to that experience, will resolve this confusion.
I'm writing this really fast as I have a short road trip to make today. I hope it makes sense for you, to you.
Best Wishes,
Steve
eggonalimb.net
