Coming out of the fog...

So, I joined Evolver over a year ago.. I went on an incredible journey spiritually, Thanks to Ayahuasca and Books, and friends, loved ones. Problem is just like a lot of people, I did not keep up on the work.. I took these great journeys with such meaning.. so touching. Had a huge response from all of you on here to my first blog about Ayahuasca. I then went right back into the every day struggle. Maybe some of you can relate.. I hope those that have been through this I hope you reach out to me, even though I stood up and started walking through the fog, its still a ways to go before I see where I need to be..

I think Maybe I "ordered too much to eat" I set up a huge feast for my mind and I could only eat so much.. I jumped in like a lot when it came to Ayahuasca and I learned , but Mother Vine told me to apply it to my life, instead I got caught up in trying to pursue my Career.. I then got caught up in the politics of the beautiful world of Tattoo Artists (sarcasm) and I lost my way.. I bettered my tattoos and artwork, but failed as a person AGAIN. I took on way too much.. I would go on Youtube and try to Gulp up everything I could on anything I felt I needed to know. I read constantly but I think my brain over loaded (if that is possible) I think what I learned in my journey thus far is...... SIMPLIFY MY LIFE.. I just want to simplify it. I own a tattoo shop that consumes whatever time I am away from my family.. and Although I spend a lot of time with my children (I watch my younger daughter until I go to work at 4 pm every day) i realize that when I am with her...Life is more simple. and I act like a child and when I do , I am so much happier.
Of course I know I cannot live like a child, but I think If I simplified things and DO NOT ALLOW MONEY to control my life.. I could live a healthier happier life.. I just want to apologize to anyone on here who sent me messages and I did not respond. I had someone tell me that I shared TOO MUCH INFO on my Ayahuasca Blog and it scared me away. I know now that It is a big part of my life and if I cannot share it with others like you all who are going through change and have open minds, than who can I talk to it about.. I was told "what if your clients read it and think you are a bit too weird" I say if my clients are lucky enough to stumble upon the real me than I hope they would love to journey with me. Thanks everyone and I hope good energy comes your way!!