convo on reality

[12:43] Ryan: i had a pretty interesting insight last week
[12:43] Mojo: really ...tell me........
[12:46] Ryan: that things are always better how you remember them than how they actually were..... like i found myself often thinking too much about what coulda been or how i wish i was back at the same place as before so that i could make different decisions but then i was meditating on it and put myself in those shoes again. i realized that i felt the same way then. even though i have thought that i was happier then due to a particular situation, whether it was money, school or the girl i was with, i was not really any happier then than i am now. I just remember it different than it actually was. it is like a trap of the mind. part of holding on to too much that really doesn't matter. part of being a slave to a false reality.
[12:48] Mojo: Be here now !!!!
[12:49] Ryan: the past doesn't really exist like my mind tries to convince me it does. my mind tries to tell me that my past makes me who i am and that mistakes in my past are part of what i am living now. but that isn't the truth. that is a lie that has been sold to us so well that our belife in it makes it real. I am not denying causation really, just pointing out that it is much more of an excuse or falisifaction of our own way of thinking.
[12:49] Mojo: We all find ourselves doing that from time to time .... reflection can be good ....
[12:51] Ryan: it is far less important than our potential. our potential is unmeasurable because we can't and don't understand it in the least. part of the Buddhist school of thought in meditation is having no attachments. to transcend duality. to escape the material world of our reality. this is why. because our potential can be limited by our own free will in trying to define what we see, but in doing so we limit what we actually do see.
[12:51] Mojo: such a tricky ride, to stay in ones mind too long, you can become entangled ....
[12:53] Ryan: but basically i just decided that i need to dicipline myself around my own universe. that i have the ability to create my own existance because i am the center of my own little world and that any and everything is my own choice and creation. I have been looking at this with dread because of my own disappointment with myself... but that disappointment is unjustified. perhaps it is just the old ways of my mind trying to cling to existence.
[12:54] Ryan: i read and hear so much about "finding yourself, learning to love yourself
[12:54] Ryan: and all that hoopla..... but it is getting at something very basic.
[12:55] Mojo: right ....so simple, and understated as it may seem .....
[12:56] Ryan: as we understand the world, it is you and can only be you so long as you are in this human body. you can only experience reality through your own eyes, thoughts and interpretations. this grants us incredible potential. we should embrace that fundamental rule of things.
[12:57] Ryan: anyway. lol.
[12:57] Ryan: :)