"Lilac Lilly"

Unrealistic, inevitable, impossibles,....
Have pushed and pulled. Way past a point of self preservation, over pain thresholds ment for near death... Seeing, but still denying!
The; CLIFF, BEND, and WALL... all at once. Understanding the picture before me, but able to unorganize the truth into a bunch of smaller, more practical pieces I can handle..
The WALL: The total destruction of a once vivid dream, easy to sustain,,
for it's very abrupt end, but so unbelievable I find myself sleepwalking through the wake and the sleep aswell...
The BEND: A frightening jar to the soul, undeniable in process, the slower fate of the curve... Leaves me in a half and half state of acceptance,.. But with a cruel hope of getting back on the road..
The CLIFF: My mind as clear as a typical downtown L.A. summer day.... Mind lost on account of the freedom from the path. The road cuts along... But understanding the TotaL -- FINAL, the bottom ,.. however far down,. will bring.
There are no brakes on 'this' ride,,,
We find to late sometimes in life, there never were..
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So fraile, and delicate, the lilac seems... So many times broken, so much to handle...
My lips never ment to, or taste the poision.. So sweet the nectar of the Lilac Lilly... The beautiful, and ugly fall the same to it's unforgiving grip.
The dulling of the sences, but not enough to kill the pain, or the real life it once helped to feed.
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The LIE...
The delicate nature presented to the surface of ones she will claim..
The words cut my tongue, the blood shed is the truth...
The perilous merger of my Heart, and Mind...
The undeniable peices, now broken..
Of a once vivid,..
Living..
DREAM.