Hi guys,

I've been away for aa while, living life, spending time with my kids and wife.

I came across this video.

If you've ever had an ambition that you were too scared to act on, if there's anything you want to do but haven't...watch this video and be inspired.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S2eUw0CUuMc&feature=youtu.be

Thanks to Stephen Fry who put me onto it.

Tom.

I did a bad thing.

Yesterday, in work, as I passed the window in the small corridor that connects the office to the bathrooms I was startled by the angry protest of a large blue wasp that was battering itself against the glass. The wasp had a blue body and was half as big as my thumb, far larger than a normal wasp. These sorts of creatures are common in Australia (where I live).

Agony is...

Having young children.

Not for the usual parental complaints - "my kids are so whiney, my children are so demanding" - no. Agony is watching your children get older. Agony is a Sunday night when you know that when they open their little eyes in the morning, you'll be on your way to work.

This week has been very strange.

I've been re-reading Cosmic Trigger and have gotten heavily into it. For those who may not have read this essential tome, it's basically an autobiographical account of Robert Anton Wilson's exporaiton of the world of the occult and the strange things he experienced and learned.

We look out of the window and we can see the splendour of Mother Nature. The grass is green, the sky is blue, up is up and down is down. Everything is as it should be. But is it that all of this happens because we expect it to? What if all we see only appears that way because we have been told? That this is the only way it can be?

Lately I've found something strange happening. Acreeping sense of isolation and alienation in my private life. Peers, Friends, online acquaintences all have seemed to withdraw from me. Previous sources of comfort and camraderie seem to shrink with every step I try to take towards enlightenment and the expansion of my counsciousness.

For a long time now, ever since I was a child, I've had pretty prophetic dreams.

The most important messages I've received from dreams always seem to make themselves stand out, they resonate in your head, they bounce around, bubble away, forment and days later you figure out what you were being told.

Over the years I've read many an occult text.

Be it Yoga, Tantra, Chaos Magick, Shamanism, The Tao, books on Gnostic Christianity, Enochian Magick, Hermeticism...on and on and on.