In the midst of death, life persists
posted by Tinh Man | January 25, 2010
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IcerocketToday is strange in a way to me, strange as any day could be. I'm able to look backat the precessionof tumultous events that has been my life for the past few months. I have completely unraveled, shedding layer upon layer of mental, physical, spiritual and emotional baggage, and while my life seems in shambles to many of those around me, I feel more grounded in Being than I have since I was a young child.
I am not perfect. I AM.
I am neither good nor evil. I AM.
The two-headed snake named Duality is tamed easily like so many charmed serpents. Dance, little friend, Dance.
A few months ago I wrote two blogs about selfishness as it might relate to escapism. Yet, try as hard as I have, I have escaped nothing, and never will. I am no Houdini of Destiny. I am no Houdestininy. It is clear to me now that I was meant to stay and befriend that kind old woman and her lonely, over-worked son. I was meant to stay and help care for her, to sit with her and read Chicken Soup for the Pet Lover's Soul and play boggle. I was meant to be here when she passed and the feel the ease with which her spirit ascended to higher planes of existence, freed from the bondage of her old arthritic body. Two months she was just and old lady, and I, just another of the home health aids, a paid participant in a morbid melodrama.
Above all, I was meant to be here to see the truth of death. To see that, like my Destiny, there is no escape from death. To see that I have died many deaths already, my old useless selves being discarded, like Mrs. Jones' worn out body, for a better existence.
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It seems that when a person
— Jan 28, 2010
It seems that when a person has hit a high point in there life spiritually, mentally, or in any other way others deam it as "Crazy" or "strange" just because they do not understand. When you said that you have been shedding layers upon layers of emotional baggage, it truly made me think...As of late I have been going through emotional stress (brought on obviously by myself, and is completely meaningless in the bigger picture yet I don't know why it still bothers me), and it made me realize why I've been going through this stress. I believe it's because my mind, body, and spirit are telling me what it is that needs to be done yet my logical mind says it's not logical to listen. So there is that two headed serpent of duality on my part. But it also made me realize it's time to let go of the unlogical logic and release it and be free. The stress is coming from the anxiety that my body is creating by not letting go, if that makes sense.
I have a friend, that you remind me very much of. His name is Juzeh, a very wise soul and in touch with his surroundings, his aura is pure and cheerful. What makes me think of this friend in relativity to this post is that this friend of mine has been able to find peace everywhere he goes, and in turn everything that he thinks would be fun or cool or an awesome mind boggling trip happens and comes to him almost instantaneously. It all happens because he is free from this baggage that you and I have been shedding and that is what I wish to accomplish. Freedom needs to happen no matter where you are, in a concrete jungle, in a lonesome cave, or on the beaches of Hawaii. I am beggining to see that freedom must first be obtained where you are now, not where you wish to be. Thank you for this post, it has truly sparked many thoughts which will be put into motion. Also, it sounds as though you have been faced with the reality that death will come. Do not fear death because it is sure to bring only negative aspects into your life. Death is apart of the entire process of life also I feel as though we must expirience death to understand life. Death is not the end, it is merely the journey of our souls and not a destination.Peace be with you brother.
