I give up
posted by Vincenz0h | January 6, 2010
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IcerocketSo at the ripe old age of 23 I've finally gotten over my soul searching. I'm done shuffling through philosophies and ideologies. I'm tired of trying on and throwing off all these different systems of meaning. It's not that I've finally found the real me, or that I've settled into a particular worldview. I'm honestly no more confident about who I am or what my place is in the world than before. But after a recent acid trip, I think it's fair to say that I've given up.
It was revealed to me, the secret of the universe. Wait, let me capitalize that. THE Secret of The Universe! The answer to everything. And yes, I actually was able to remember it after I came down (how many of you can say THAT?!).
I was tripping complete face, out of my mind at a music festival. I sat on the ground, pulled my blindfold over my eyes, and decided that I was going to get to the heart of it all while my mind was in the right state. I sat, and I threw off all of the distractions. My mind tried to pull me this way and that. My old reactions came up and cried for attention. I shed them all off, wouldn't give in to them and demanded to know "WHAT IS IT!?" What is it that I'm after, what is the real purpose behind this cosmic conspiracy or lack-thereof? And as I ascended through the various levels of consciousness like a psychic ninja, I saw the triangulated eye rise up, and a winged key descended from above, and the two met, locked together to form a brilliant six pointed star, signifying that the ageless, esoteric knowledge was about to be transmitted. I understood that I couldn't utter a word of this to anyone. "WHAT IS IT!!!!" my soul screamed! And it was revealed...
An open palm, with nothing in it. There was nothing there. It was totally and completely empty. This was the secret of the universe, the treasure of solomons' temple. The answer to everything. Nothing.
This is what we were all after, searching for so frantically like a zen monk grappling with some ridiculous koan. We all chase so desperately after this nothing, thinking that there is some THING there that will make us happy and complete and which will make total sense of everything.
When you have nothing, nobody can take that away from you, because there is nothing to take. Everything else you will lose. And no matter how hard you grasp, you can't have that nothing, because it's not there. You will lose EVERYTHING. Even the hands by which you grasp so hard, you will lose those too. And the only thing that will be left is the result of our actions.
I realized the most liberating idea of my life; that there's nothing there, there's no purpose or enemy. That the world is exactly what we've made of it through our actions. It's all a giant cosmic dance around a center of nothing, that we should stop taking everything so seriously, and that we should, by our actions, try to make the world as heavenly and comfortable for all beings as we possibly can.
Now my dilemma is what to construct on this new ground...
Comments
OMG! ripe ol' age of 23! u
— Jan 07, 2010
OMG! ripe ol' age of 23! u should try on 28! and im broke i got nuttin in my pockets! what ima make with THAT :-O :-) GROK!
Ravo- the surfer that never surfed!
thank you
— Jan 07, 2010
I saw it too, and more than once... perhaps because I was just full of doubt and also a bit disappointed after all was 'revealed', at first it was confusing, but it came up again and again until I began to really understand it and finally accept it. It is liberating in a sense and I see what you are saying so clearly, and I don't believe it, I just 'know' it, somehow. Now I can go back to having fun, because, well, when else will I be able to but now?
I had a very similar
— Jan 08, 2010
I had a very similar experience with a shroom trip!!! and your last question... I'm right there too... now what? so we in reality are no-thing all that we see, touch, smell, etc is not to stay but to part in this universe of cycles... I seriously think that thats the much sought after enlightenment... no fireworks, no super human abilities, etc... is just that, just being... but that still leaves us with the current situation of where we stand as a species... we are killing each other, polluting the planet, you hear about this gruesome murders on TV and so on and so forth... so how do we get out of this mess... I think this by far the most important question we could ask ourselves... why are we here and why does this whole thing called universe exist??? well like you said by us looking desperately for a THING we find just that things and things ultimately take on better ways... so if we are nothing and civilization is the manifestation of our collective, then... what are waiting to bring heaven on earth?
They say before
— Jan 08, 2010
They say before enlightenment, you chop wood and carry water. After enlightenment, you chop wood and carry water.
My attitude at the time was "either I'm enlightened or this is THE best acid I've ever had..." ! I'm still not sure which is the case. You come down though, and all your old habits and thought patterns kick right back in, and you realize how much work you really have to do still. All of my obligations and entanglements were there waiting for me like some sort of field of challenge which I now have to wade through in order to apply what I've learned.
yeap... I feel like I'm just
— Jan 08, 2010
yeap... I feel like I'm just understanding how to deal with my everyday situation is almost like looking at things with a different set of eyes but everything is there all my situations, habits, problems call them as you may... they are still there waiting for me.
I have wondered for years
— Jan 31, 2010
I have wondered for years why there is something instead of nothing and last year I experienced a breakthrough. It was not a psychedelic experience though (I don't do that stuff), just that I came across the work of physicist Victor Stenger. Before Stenger there were already theories in physics that the universe came about as a spontaneous quantum fluctuation of vaccuum, as allowed by quantum mechanics, but still there was the question Where did the laws of quantum mechanics come from?
Stenger derived laws of quantum mechanics, besides other things, from nothingness in his book Comprehensible Cosmos. The main part of the book is for the educated layman and there is also a 100+ pages of mathematical appendices understandable for undergraduate students of physics. The basic idea is that physical laws are based on space and time symmetries, and nothingness is the only perfectly symmetrical state. It satisfies all possible symmetries. The laws of physics look like they came from nothing and they allow for the state of nothingness to pass spontaneously to a state of something (non-zero matter/energy). As another physicist, Lawrence Krauss, said: "In quantum mechanics when you have nothing you always get something." Also, it is now almost confirmed by astronomical observations that the total energy of the universe is zero, which would be the amount conserved from the beginning when there was nothing. (the positive energy of matter is compensated by the negative potential gravitational energy)
I recently realized a brief
— Feb 17, 2010
I recently realized a brief and elegant proof that the Empty Set is infinite since there can be no one-to-one function that maps the natural numbers onto the empty set.
I'm pretty sure this issue has been addressed before, and that there is some sort of axiomatic flaw in my logic...
but all these constructed ideas of infinity and the quantum vacuum and energy... NO! Stop wasting your time with these ideas. There's NOTHING there. Trust me. Just be a kind and compassionate person. That's all.
