i believe flux is the norm, and yet find myself routinized in a life that doesn't seem wholly mine anymore. I guess, I'm trying to rediscover the lost bits of myself that I have fogotten, the strengths that led me to feel integrated into the world, and integrate that into my present life, and pass on to my children the fearlessness of my beliefs, rather than this kind of restless, consumeristic, aquisition based, illusiory, ummmm...BS.