Revelation

I've had an amazing experience, at least for me it has been amazing. I am uncertain how to put into words this lightening bolt of confirmation that has jolted and consumed my thoughts. Joyously validating my inner intuitions in the embodiment of a complete and utter stranger in the most unlikely place, the grocery store. We very nearly crashed out carts into one another coming around an end cap. She peeked around and the corner and said “BOO”! How can you not smile when an elderly woman beams at you with ethereal light. She told me that she knew she would meet me, spoke to me of the bible and healing hands, she said she knew me by God's love shining in my face.. Eeerrrkkk what? Now that’s not a bad thing by any means but wow you don’t hear that everyday, especially when you are not exactly or even nearly one whom at glance attends church. I had expected when she started talking about the Bible she was going to ask after my salvation. She said she knew I was a “believer” I easily acknowledged I am though my definition would most likely be slightly different than hers. I knew she was coming from a “christian” view and I was blown away,she readily knew me, knew my secret. The one buried in doubt and shame from the very upbringing she was coming from. She graciously asked and accepted my gift and gave to me something far greater than what I feel I have done for her. In touching this angel before me and doing what my heart directs, releasing the ugliness of pain, filling us both with love I gave her comfort and she gave me acceptance. She saw me and she allowed me to see through her eyes. She told me Jesus told her she would meet me. I hugged her and took my mind blown self home, utterly changed. I couldn't stop thinking about her.

A couple of days later I am back at the store and think to myself how crazy it would be if I saw her again and I turned a corner and there she was radiant just like before. I actually had wondered after our first meeting if maybe I hadn’t hallucinated the whole encounter. But there she was. She said she came to the store looking for Me! I get chills just thinking about it. She told me she had testified in church about me. Now that really freaked me out.... Doubt rose up in me stronger than ever before.. Rejection and ridicule rearing their ugly heads. I wanted to tell her please don’t tell people about that.. I realize in that instant that I am still living with shame and fear in my heart. I was holding onto beliefs that were irrelevant to who I am. So I can manipulate energy, I can feel others and can channel their pain. I’m an Empath. That doesn’t mean that I am one of those wacky over the top faith healers we have all seen and scoffed at. Though I have always suspected there is more truth to that power than some want to believe. Healing takes place in our minds which is far more important than what happens with our flesh. I have known I could do this for a very long time, and until the last few months didn’t really get that it was related to what I see/feel. I can be a bit slow and quite stubborn. Rarely and with only a handful of people had I ever shared much less spoke about this talent, gift whatever you want to call it. Jean, that’s her name, tells me that Jesus told her in her prayers that I needed to share my beliefs and gifts. Lightening bolt number two.

For quite sometime I have been focused almost exclusively on healing, myself, those I love, Mother Earth, and have been having these thoughts of how I should learn Reiki or something because I believe in helping others I will help myself and that would resonate out into the world. I watched a couple of videos and discovered that I am already pretty much doing it. Armed with this insight I wonder, ok what am I supposed to do with this, my inner dialog going nuts and finding any number of reasons why I should walk away from this before its too late. But there is Jean standing in front of me telling me quite plainly what I already knew was my path. Confirmation again.

Couple of more days pass and I am running errands and decide on a whim to stop at the store hoping to see Jean. Wondering if she has any more heavenly messages for me. I pull in and as I am parking I spot her several isles over maneuvering her cart between cars. I literally jump out of my truck and run across the parking lot, leaving my son wondering what the heck just happened...I love this woman and would do anything to help her and I don’t even know her.. there is no mask to wear with her and she is not like the rest of the energy sucking vampires and zombies, her energy is soothingly calm and I can hear myself think. She tells me I am a blessing to her, and that her shoulder has not bothered her since. She encourages me to share my heart. She tells me I glow with love. Funny thing is that is what I think of her. She is the one doing the healing here.

I am finding a way from this experiences to reconcile all the jumbled pieces into coherence and cohesion. Now comes the hard part. Coming out of the closet so to speak and ignoring my inclination to be isolated. Allowing myself to be open. Allowing everyone whom I come across to see me. Allowing the masks to fall away. Healing and loving , being loved and healed. Awakened.

My deepest gratitude to Jean for being the mirror that showed me I am whom I've always known. My hope that others will allow their beautiful light to shine and be receptive to those around them. You never know the impact a smile or even a “Boo” can have.

Synchronicity at work!?!

Love and Light
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